A way to start dec!

Yes now im blogging frm tan tock seng.. Typing with 1 hand coz left hand hurts!!! Ok wish me luck n get well soon..

Not diamond, not bold.. Its Iphone

Iphone have change my life. Enuff said..

I will update when i feel like it.

lately its been the same, work family and friends...
well there's some issues going on but i dont feel like blogging..
Juz celebrated mum's bday on saturday(actual on friday) so ya..
nothing much... and waj gave us problem on sunday and yesterday.. omg, im like broke 2...
well Congrats Button,2009 World champion!! woooohooooooo nah im expecting Rubens Barrichello to win, but its ok, we will see.. Kimi will be out from ferrari < WTH!!!! and Alonso will rplce kimi < another WTF!!!!! ok...Thank God Massa gonna stay... yup2..
arites gotta go...Bye Auf Wiedersehen!!!

My Cullen car

What's your Cullen car?

Goodbye Grandma..
Yes its been a week since Maternal Grandma left us, some coping well, some of us, not really.. I guess im doing just fine, only im Exhausted to the max!!!
But im glad she's no longer suffering. Ya she lost the battle with cancer, but we knew she left us in a peaceful way. Its like, she went into a deep sleep and suddenly there's no more breathing and heartbeat..
Mum was like asking me hows every1 coping, i know its hard for her, exactly 12 yrs ago Her dad(Grandpa) left us.. and 6 days before grandpa 12 anni, grandma decided to leaves us to reunite with grandpa..so im trying my best to understand..

Im sorry, im only gonna remember u the way i know u will always be and not when u are really sick..
Tho im not close to you, but this yr raya is definitely different without you...
and hope Jalan Kechot will always be kecoh as always... no the bad way, but the good way.. Will see you in Akhirat..



Miss P decided to visit me today after going on a break for 2 freaking months!!
its hurting me!!DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!

Ok NO!!!! Schumacher backs out!!

when i thot god really answer my prayers, schumacher backs out from comeback due to his neck injury..no joke..so it kinda make me moody whole day!!!
Irritate yana (not my sis) and the system, at work is killing me.. now im on twitter, follow my update aites.. i will post as and when i can...
and develop crush on KELLAN LUTZ is superb ah..he's hot..i mean i cant resist his hot body...damn!!!
im going to sleep soon...
and ya im not really tired now..so i cant sleep..
my cousin is pissing me off..im really mad at him now...

MEETING FARRAH LATER!!!YEAY !!!!!!!!

wonder where avante is??
he's happy with his life, we part ways almost a month ago...
life back to normal before he came, at first im fighting with myself..with the pain..
but i realise im not so stress as i used to be...the frequent fights and cries..
its over, i guess he's happy now..

MICHAEL SCHUMACHER RETURNS!!!!

my Title explain my blog post, there's no need for me to explain, probably u guys have hear it on the radio, and on the papers, i found out right after lunch.
after lunch, i went for my S break, then to the toilet, feeling full, walk in and saw the papers, ya at the waiting area.. I FLIP THRU, sports section!! UPDATE ON MASSA mybe, BUT THE HEADLINES, MICHAEL TO REPLACE MASSA!!! i just speed read, put it back, and run as fast as i cud, knocking down few humans on the way, to my sister..its like shuttle run..i reached my sis desk, OUT OF BREATH!!panting, and said this
KAK! KAK!!!! Miccchhhhaeeeelllll Sccchhhhuuuummmmaccchhhheeerrrrr
then my colleague: ah ah, Michael Schumacher Replace Massa!! I heared on the radio..
I was like half jumping!! YEAY!!!!!!!!!!
IM GOING TO THE F1 RACE!!!!!
nothing is going to stop me, and even tho im under alot of pressure...
im still very happy... smile, giggle..and even tell myself this, IM GOING TO WATCH SCHUMACHER RACE AGAIN, EVEN IN SPORE!!!
SO Willi Weber, dont try to stop Schumacher ok!! He made his mind, Ferrari have submitted the Superlicense application!! Schumi will be taking lots of physical test and trainning, come on give this guy credit!! HE'S 40..injured his neck in a moto race.. and now he's willing to do a comeback.. Its for the fans! Ferrari Fans, and its a good big wake up call for Kimi Raikkonen (interesting).. and Schumi never test this F60 before, with the KERS install, i bet there's alot of action, tho its only left with 7 races to go, Schumi wont be able to fight for Championship..but i believe, there will be more winning..

IM SO SO SO HAPPY!!!
And, Farrah called me!!! Yeay!!! She will be back this monday night!!! i really miss her so so much!!!!

And update about Massa,
he cant remember the incident..well its ok..
but he's better now, out of the ICU, will be discharged in 10 days..
And he thinks that if the accident didnt happen, he will win the race..MASSA..u r so great.. We will see you next year aites, now concentrate in getting better, ur Mentor will be taking over the red car...



F1 or Twilight..
gosh...F1 for life!!!

Get Well Soon Massa

Just a 800 gram damper spring that came loose from the rear suspension of Rubens Barrichello's Brawn is what it takes to do the damage on your skull..Massa suffered serious, life-threatening injuries including loss of consciousness and a fracture of the forehead on the left side and a fracture on the base of the skull.
Just look at the videos i have here...
my heart and thoughts goes to him and his family...
im a lil bit emotional. Massa is my favourite driver.. after Michael Schumacher..
He's still in danger but in stable condition.. Michael Schumacher ruled out the possiblities of him to replace Massa as he no longer possesses a Formula One superlicence.
a few days ago a F2 driver died when a wheel struck his helmet.. its pretty disturbing right now..






look at the replay




From f1-live.com

Ferrari and formula one officials insisted that prognosis was alarmist, but Peter Bazso repeated his concern on Sunday, having awakened 28-year-old Massa briefly to conduct further tests.

While Massa's coma was briefly interrupted, it is said that he recognised his family and attempted to speak.

However when asked if the Brazilian's life is still in danger, Bazso answered: "Yes, of course. He is in an acute phase. What can come next, we don't know."

He revealed that Saturday's surgery was to remove broken bones from his skull, but said Massa had so far responded as expected from the injuries sustained.

Bazso refused to respond to speculation that Massa may be sidelined for the rest of the 2009 season - which seems likely - or that there may be permanent damage.

"At the moment, we have to overcome this life-threatening condition," he insisted.

HOW FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!
will keep myself updated!!!!hahaha and you guys

back to twilight..gosh!!!
edward is hot hot hot....

I THINK I NEED A BREAK....

i miss farrah so much..
and i think i miss avante 2..
wait...ya..its true abt my facebook status recently..
we kinda broke up as friends for good.. ya.. it hurts alot..
suddenly i felt there's nobody at all in my life, next room my grandpa is lying sick..
before that i send my bestfriend, and mybe she's already on her way to Texas when avante just decided to drop the bomb on me.. its best we part ways...
i just felt its the end...
haiz....
maybe i will blog something decent tmr...
im still having fever....
im lost....

ps: i hope this will make some1 a happy person..

its ok, im alright now.. he's gone..
nvm, i have Justin...(ya the teddy avante bought for me)
im going to continue readin MIDNIGHT SUN...
now i wish i have n97..wakakakaka.. 2more months...
argh i cant decided on what hp...now i changed my mind.. n97..wat the hell!!!!!

Arsenal Away 09/10 & Michael Schumacher The Whole Story

hi all..

happily reading a book abt michael schumacher, ya borrowed it frm geylang east library..

and im now finding it online, i wanna get all michael schumacher books..

i cant never get enuff of him...hahahaha..

make a mistake to give sum1 michael schumacher book for his bday present..

haiz..

its ok, i can always buy new ones...

hahaha

AND!!!!!!!!!!!
yeay!! i got my AWAY KIT!!

ya pics below!!!
getting the 3rd kit next month..

white in colour..trust me, im a die hard fan of f1 and arsenal...

dun u think fabregas is hot!!!
gosh i will date him anytime!!hahaha

Bye Kenari..Remember me always!!!!

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone



ARGH!!! FIGHTING WITH AVANTE IS EXHAUSTING..MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY..
its killing me, worst now im typing with a swollen.. it hurts.. argh he owe me one.. i mean, ya ok thanks he bought dinner for me.. nvm..but sometimes its just...i dunno.. im trying hard to understand him, but it seems we fail..mybe when the time comes, we really gotta go our separate ways, as he just told me the other part of his life seems better now... Well its a good news, but now..i have no idea why we are fighting.. Sometimes about food, time, movie..argh!!!!!!

Finally i went to watch Transformer..Awesome..ya with him, my transformer story teller. Hahahaha. we catch the 12.30 movie as the 11.15 movie that i book is cancel, coz he didnt fetch me on time, end up we juz gamble and went to cathay instead...argh!!! i reach home 3.30am.. and saw kenari... and got emotional again..
ya.. kenari have been my faithfull ride for almost 3 yrs.. its really sad to see kenari go... i mean, we trade for a bigger car.. but i think kenari is the most awesome car ever even tho its small but it is spacious, i feel like a mafia in it..its cute black tinted car.. arghhhhhhhhh
kenari i love you so much.. you make me proud.. coz avante prove to me that he's a teruk driver and im better than him even tho i dont have a driving license...
take care and dun be notty ok with ur new owner, i promise i will visit you once in a while when i can...no worry if i miss u so much i will call ur owner and have a date with you, i know ur new owner will not let me drive u ard, but its ok.. im glad i did try the bonnet compartment n u prove that u r not MINI coz i can fit it the bonnet compartment.. hahahaha.. kenari, u will always be my fav...
ps: i rather keep u than avante...(he's killng me, n he hates u so much)

Somewhere Only We Know

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

No Surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why


It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why



Months knowing Avante and be beside him when i can.
I know part of me is with him,
But i never stop him from meeting or knowing other girls,
and still be there for him,
knowing deep down he still love that some1. I just kept quite.
Follow the restrictions, rules and so on that he wrote with open heart,
but sometimes it feels like im suffocating, i really cant breathe.
Its tiring, the fights, the cries its driving me crazy.
When he's gone, i feel free, tho i miss him like crazy,
but guess what, i found out, EVEN tho im the first he meet, and the last he called everynite, he's mind is with some1 far away..
Then i realised he love that some1 he never met more than me, or im just here to fill the emptiness.
I have to go thru all the pain alone, when i received calls and texts from unknown no, scolding me, thinking im a home wrecker.. I read his phone inbox and i read those msges for me, cursing my whole entire family, ouch it hurts, i confronted him, and he told me to be patience. I never once curse anybody family, why i have to go through all this...
Trust me, I'm just there as a friend and nothing more, and those kisses and hugs are just friendly types, tho it felt so tight and passionate kisses, no, its nothing, coz we are just friends..

I gotta be strong coz now, i know, i got to stand on my own, hopefully without him.

To Avante,
You know, i will always be there for you, we survived for 7 months, sometimes we fought about money and all, and my words hurt u, so does urs 2.. but i never really mean it.
You know it damn well, and you depend on me alot.. So do i..
I'm really sorry this weekend i've been on ur nerve, and we fought for 3 days straight, it's no surprise it ended way earlier than what we expected, if Hungray is where you wanna be, go ahead, but clear the air with that some1, coz im tired being that bad bitch home wrecker person that she thinks i am, and i know im not that person, and u never gave me a chance to defend myself coz u dont want things to get even worst, but today, i had enough, this is the last straw.. i gotta defend myself..

I cant believe i stand strong for 7 months, and gave all up today!

To Farrah and Haziq,
Finally i manage to get up and run..

To All: Dont expect any updates for now...

I need time off, wanna chill with Isaac, and my friends for karaoke and maybe Transformers movie..maybe i shall go alone..I just want to spend time alone..

IM BACK!!
I BOUGHT ARSENAL JERSEY FOR ISAAC HAMZAH!!!
OK LA..BYE!!!!!!!!

Dinner Date With Isaac

Dinner Date with Isaac.. awesome!! we had fun, he's super talkative la now.. but i dont understand what he's really trying to say la..
he said something like >bomba gigi dua < fireman with 2 teeth
kinda confuse...
he called me AN-TY an-na..(my sister name)

then when told him my name, he chnge my name to ty-nis..

confuse2...
and we share a happy meal and oreo mcflurry..

he had 1/4 cheeseburger (mostly the beef n cheese) and 1/2 fries, i had the rest...
how cool....
Avante, let us share a happy meal, hehehehe...

i miss isaac so much...
just like how i miss farrah and avante...
to make things worst, avante now busy with his work that he's hardly in spore, geddit..he's away!! he just left me for work..now im practically lonely during late nite..hehehe..
and i miss him super teruk la... why must he works overseas argh!!!!
ok nvm... work hard.. in a yr time, we go europe ok... save enuff money..then a yr later we buy a new car... i buy and put the first driver my dad, 2nd driver my sis, 3rd u..yeay!!!!! but use ur money ok :P
hehehehehe... so im waiting for him to be back.. and he will take me out shopping!!!

wat ever is, im off to msia again.. 3 weeks in a row... yeay..

last sat we went back to kampung..its been 3 yrs... atuk chnge alot..mybe after the fall, he no longer able to move ard and all, he lost a lot of weight.. so different from what i knw...
weather kinda hot.. but i had fun... off to msia soon, in 2-3 hrs time... with the new FORTE!!!yippeee!!!!!
gonna sleep during the journey..hehehe..as usual..hope that my cousins (the boys 19-22) will be following, so i can have smoke break in between...

im so in love with the song LOCKED IN LOVE...

I cant recognize who iam
when i'm lookin in a mirror(mirror, no, no ,no ,no)
shackled by the love i have for youand i know that u feelin the same
we were once both 2 beautiful minds
attracted to each other
the differences that we had
somewhere along the line we kinda lost out way

so im not just gonna sit around
and let u forget what we were
once there was strength in being together
we need to find keys out of this prison

locked in a prison
in a prison i know that we made
cant we be like the birds an the bees
livin for each day
locked in love, your love, my love, it's our love
it's such a shame

i cant remember the moments
we sharedwhen im staring at the pictures
the ones we hung on the wall
why cant we be like that today
we we're once both glowing with love
drawn into each other
lovin every moment we spent
what can we do to recover that
how did we get so blind
how do we find a way

where's my money

ARGH!!!WHERE'S MY PAY!!I CHECK IN THE SYSTEM, MY PAY WILL BE In TODAY!!!!!I GOT THE REF NO!!
PANDAI RIGHT ME!!!!
SM on leave, i do all this..HEAD is still around...who cares...wakaka
reached work at 11...told my AO i will be late when im just downstairs, taking my life away..wakakaka..
feeling superstar..hehehe

avante came over last night,10.45pm...
i on diet..i didnt even eat...(action merajuk, end up my tummy cant take any food)
so we end up talking for 1 full hour..and while busy talking and smoking our ass off..
mum and dad came back frm jb..so they saw us..
and they just wave and say hi, and walk off.
.amazing huh my parents chnge..more understanding i guess..
till midnite... and as usual, after a fight will end up with a big hug...
actually we still not ok..then i dare him, i know he will not do watever i dare him to do..
i was like 2 steps away frm him, suddenly i know i was in his arms..a tight hug and a kiss frm my cheek..
and everything is all done...we joke, and laugh..and all settle we are back as friends..stubborn la...

btw im meeting farrah in 10 mins time, ok la..wanna chill with her...
im gonna away over the weekend..Msia la where else im gonna go...boo hooo....
let us go shopping!!!hahaha, my parents gonna pay btw..not me..
IM STILL BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi!!!!

Hello..

i feel so down now..
mybe becoz i fought with avante, and the best part was like i juz reached office..
like i juz sit, i havent even on my pc, he called and we start this mini fight...and it change my mood.. (OH BTW I JUST FOUGHT WITH HIM AGAIN. TIME CHECK 6.55PM)

i went home late last nite...ard 2am..
really exhausted..
mybe by now, my sister and bro in law, is otw to johor...stay one nite and my uncle hse,
and off with him and his wife to pahang for the fishing GP..best!!!!!
i wish i can run away to her desk...so not even my team member can disturb me.. wakakakakaka...

2 days without my AO, i did my work fast n perfect, not even 1 human disturb me...
today..she's on my nerve..argh!!!!!!!!!!!

btw..

finally i update..
next week onwards i will be evn more depress than ever...
part of me will be somewhr else...
haiz..

and the most frustrating issue ever is my cousins are like...
argh.....
changing gfs every day!!!!!!!!! and they are like 14!!!!!
my god...when im 14 i have to spend weekends in kl...
everywhr i go, there's family or mybe abg andy and my cousins...
not boys..not bfs!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!

i feel i'm not the hanis i know..i really dont know myself anymore..
too committed to work... i forget my surrounding..
i need to be there for my family... its my responsibility but i seems to let it hanging around..argh!!!
since when im a workaholic!!!!!

SNEAK PEAK TO MY WORLD NOW.... (PIC BELOW)
OH btw i have to climb onto a chair.and one leg on the wall coz there's no space left..
i was the one arranging my team so nobody left out and and the pic turn out perfect, no half face or crop head..
i think 4 ppl missing..
pic taken last friday, celebrate the may babies bday and one temp staff last day...

no boundries

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breath it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thingJust when you think the road is going no where

Just when you almost gave up all your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don't know where the future's headed

Nothing's gonna bring me down

Jumped every bridge I've run every line

I risk being safe, I always knew whyI always knew why

So here I am still holding on

farrah here updating hanis blog

this is the way the bestie is feeling now

ily!!

its schumacher!!!
its me...i so love him n ferrari!!!!!!!!
THANKS FARRAH

My First Sex Call..hahaha..My First Police Report

To Whom It May Concern:

Stop passing my no around, asking humans by the name of Don or Fon to call me, and asked me if I provide free sex.
Mind you, sex is not in my mind right now.

And u called me at 1528hrs.. 13/05/09…
Shud buy toto…

And if my vagina is damn fucking itchy to have sex. I got a long list of guys that I can have sex with. BUT IM NOT IN THE FUCKING MOOD TO HAVE SEX OR HANKY PANKY.

AND I DUN PROVIDE FREE SEX, OR ESCORT SERVICES!!!!!

Now this is the reason why im going to get a new hp and new no…
Just let my office, friends, and family have my no..

At first I find it scary. Now im laughing my ass off..
And wonder, with the fucking workload im facing everyday, I guess I got no time to even go to a salon to cut my hair let alone have sex..

But exceptional if that guy is just so hot like fabregas or has tight ass like samir nasri, and maybe look like Edward cullen. I wud say yes.. hahahahaha…
But who on earth wud call me at 3.30pm and asked me if im meeting him tonight, coz i only make plan with my sweet avante(the car) but that also I gotta cancel coz im super busy with work..

Ok la ppl.. I gotta go, my work is juz so crazy…

Im going to file a police report..
Hmmmm cool…