circle in black...

its 2.48am and i just had a short shower...
coz i got mozzies bites all over.. fuck..

to stop me from scratching it, so i wash myself again.. and use the lighter to stop the itchyness..

on my right wrist i have 3 bites.. this mozzies gonna be damn fucking full sucking my blood...

do u always trust what ur heart says??
its freaking me out..



i went to farrah's hse.. i mean swimming pool area to study with the rest..
when i took the bus.. my heart keep telling me NOT to go...
but i just ignore it...
when i reach the place.. my heartbeat rate damn fast...
did 2 questions..

ard maghrib izza and mashas went to siglap to buy dinner, and farrah went up to her hse for dinner...

left me and su..

i told su i really miss shaun...

i cried and stuff...

(after saturday, i pretend im alright and didnt cry anymore)

waited for ninie, ate our dinner...

resume back studying.. and suddenly i just felt uneasy.. more uneasy...

farrah told me, shaun coming over tmr...

i was like, oh ok...

in my heart, i felt like he's here now....

finish up one question.. and....

i went to the baby pool to chill...

i felt his aura... it freaky....

so i juz go to the end, and sit... and look up in the sky..

and suddenly i cried...

farrah came over and tell me this..

actually babe...

he's upstair kat rumah aku...

i was like, what the fuck...

i wanna go home now...

i cant stop crying...

i realised i really love him...
i called some ppl.. that will save me if i fall (thats wat they said)

he told me to meet shaun.. but i cant.. i think if i meet shaun now..

i wud juz continue crying instead of talking or i wud juz fell down...
sometimes wen u realised u love some1...but its already too late..coz that person already left u..

i no longer have feeling for full moon or whoever...

coz wen i make the decision to be wif shaun.. im ready and i love him...

now...everybody in depress mood...

and 1 litre of tears is really damn sad..

i guess today alone, i cried more than one litre of tears...