EMO..

At work now, and the system is currently down. What a pathetic start to a new week.
Tried my best to adjust to my lepak lifestyle but it drained me before I could even feel the vibe..

Then on Saturday its not my day seriously. I was super down and stress. Im even too tired to watch soccer. And only watch the 2nd half of arsenal match. That explain how work life taking its toll on me, or rather work life is now my life. Even farrah joked with me.
Now we meet we talk about work, where go the topics about hot boys, love and gossips??no more gossip girls and stuff I guess..

Now its not about what day dress im gonna wear, what shoes and handbag should go with it.

Its not that easy anymore. And when im exhausted, I get so emotional and expect the whole world understand that Im trying to provide the best for myself and people around me and that im also trying my best to adapt to working life.. (NOW I APPRECIATE SCHOOL AND STUDY LIFE SO MUCH).. Where I need to worry abt exams and what im suppose to wear tmr to class) it seem that im exaggerating.. NO!! its just that im trying so hard to please myself that I end up like this..and expecting people around me to be sensitive with my feelings..

Avante and me growing apart. And I felt that its me to be blame. Tho most of the times iIts him.. but now after the meeting we had after i met estranged. We became 2 different people. Now I woke up, I wonder if some1 out there still curse me like she usually does.

Now I woke up, I wonder shud I gave her the sympathy that I give to others when they are less fortunate. Its totally none of my business and I have to be selfish. And hustle for what I want. But I know im not that. Im no longer selfish and I practically change and became sensitive about what happening around me. Some called me stupid, coz in the end nobody care about my suffering. And when avante said that some1 is suffering and stuff, I shot him with questions like a machine guns. And all I want is fairness.

Eventually we both knew that the time is coming for us to part ways. And its not looking good on me especially now I depend on him and farrah only. Farrah is always beside me when Im up for some mischief and avante is there when I need to punch someone..NOW…
At work..im practically stress about my workload.. im studying a lot and my brain seems unable to cope with the work that they gave..


And I feel like screaming or listen to MARA BAHAYA super loud and dance to it.. (figure it yourself)
FARRAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I need hot boys!!!!!I need some orgasm scream!!!!!!CAN I HAVE COWBOY!!! DAMN…THIS IS CRAZY…

HOW I MISS ISAAC NOW..
I SWEAR ONLY HIM CAN MAKE ME DESTRESS….

NOW I KNOW WHY PPL HATE TO WORK…AND RATHER LEAD A BORING TAI TAI LIFESTYLE…
COZ SOME HUMANS ARE SUPER ARROGANT AND THINKS THIS WHOLE BLOODY COMPANY BELONGS TO THEM AND THEY CAN BULLY ME…

IT SEEMS MY HATE LIST IS GROWING…


oh i just cant wait for saturday!!!!
isaac and me..swimming..farrah and all...
oh god please let tmr be a saturday... (fat hope!!!)

STRESS BITCH PART 1

STUPID IT HUMAN THATS WORKING HERE..
WELL FROM YESTERDAY U EARN A PLACE IN MY HATE LIST!!!
SAW U AGAIN JUST NOW...
BOLEH BLAH LA...
WHAT I NEED NOW IS MY BLOODY EMAIL!!!!
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO DO MY WORK IF U KEEP MY EMAIL IN UR POCKET!!!!

super stress..doin 2 jobs...
i get freaking confuse..
n i currently taking a five min break..

waaaa..yesterday i had free lunch...
today they gave me free crackers...1 whole box...
i guess they knw i love to munch when im stress...

can wait to knock off later..going home to eat...and go to bed ard 9...
i swear not 1 fren of mine believe i sleep at 9...
hahahaha...

i asked my dad to get for me food frm spize...2 mushroom soup and nasi ayam goreng kunyit!!!
im gonna eat like a pig and sleep like a bloody snake...

there go my intention of losing weight....

avante is home now...
thank god my punching bag is here...
i need to practice on my muay thai skills!!!!!!!!


its so damn freaking obvious im freaking stresss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but my sister face is damn scary la..
no one dare to disturb her..NOT EVEN ME!!!!!!!!
i guess triple H also will run away if he saw her face....

i swear she gonna kill me...bye peeps...

stress

im wondering...what kind of job suits me....
seriously...this is a crazy job!!!!
its not to my liking..
and i kept pujuking myself by telling myself...
in 3 months i can have a new LV beg using my own money...
erm...let see how it goes first aite...
i got tons of work to do right now...
and tmr i have to juggle 2 jobs in a day!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

avante...pulang cepat aurora kamu rindu kamu...



ps: no longer lead a tai-tai life!!!!
reality snaps...OUCH!!!!

ESTRANGED!!! and aurora

sad thing, i havent got the pics from farrah's camera..
And of coz saz!!!
im like so crazy about andy!!
omg...
nuff said..
we the 6 of us...farrah just stand one corner..
acted like fanatics on the loose stalking them...
well no we didnt..even before the race..me and din raced each other...he won..

i got 3rd!!! damn!!!!
andy is not that tall standing beside me.. hahahaha...
(thats gonna be my wallpaper sia)
Finally.. after years of wanting to meet them i finally met them juz now!!!!
and we the most kecoh fans!!!
we sang almost all the song they perform..Aurora, Itu Kamu, In no time and Yang Pernah

after that..we went backstage took pics..like class photo la...seriously..hehe
and thanks farrah for the help... i shy!!!!
hahahaha
done with pics..we went far east for lunch..
still not over abt estranged...

then we went separate ways...on the way back to taka...
some1 called me..
telling me estranged right infront of him..
buying ice cream...hahahaha

so i told him pass the hp to andy coz i need to remind him abt the presents wawa and the gang gave...
so here the story

he: hello, anybody by the name of andy here??
andy: yes im andy..
he: here's a phone call for u
andy: *took the hp frm him, check the caller's name (aurora)
and he said this
hello AURORA!!!!
me: hi andy, its me HANIS..erm, just wanna remind u about the gift my frens gave u..

did u took it with u guys??
andy: ya..i did, its in our beg in and we have loaded it in the transport.
thanks for reminding and thanks once again
me: its ok..take care
andy: ok u2 bye..
and i hang up straight

farrah look at me, hey...u got andy's no??
and im like, no he saw them, so i asked him to pass the phone to andy..
im melting help!!!!!!!
and when we decided to j walk...

we saw them again..walking towards wisma eating ice cream..

hahahahahaha

thanks dear...

u make me malu!!!
now andy know u called me aurora!!
hahahahahahaha...

ok i wanna sleep now!!!
gute nacht humans!!!!!!!

oh andy!!
faints!!!!!!!!!!!

finally the wait is over....

the wait is over..finally oh sizuka is out!!!
new single from pop shuvit !!!! i love it!!!!


oh sizuka ku tunggumu
nana na nana nana
oh sizuka
nanana na nana na na nana
oh sizuka ku tunggumu
nana na nana nana
oh sizuka
ku tunggu panggilanmu!!!

and finally aft almost 2 yrs i been hearing his name but nvr once i meet him in person..
at last, i met him last nite...hahahaha...i was already halfway sick but i juz follow la..
later some1 thinks i abandon her...hahahahahaha...farrah i'll nt abandon u anyhow ok...

i thot he gonna be a mat jiwang coz he juz lost his grandad..
but he so crazy and joker of the day...
and farrah..as per normal..sometimes the blonde moments have to happen right infront of him!!!
omg!!!!! baby!!!!
and this mat...i felt like smacking him coz he so da freaking irritating..no wonder la farrah love him!! both the same...hahahaha...
and he can get along well with me...
and he failed his malay oral coz he mistook Pelancong to Pelacur!!!!!!!
we laugh our ass off..damn!!!!!!!
hahahaha...
his brother is freaking hot..and his sister is sizzling hot!!!!!!!!
okok enuff..

i had a mini fashion show again..
but i called farrah to ask her abt belt and shoes to go on with the outfit im wearing today...
hahahahahaha..
and im late again...i left home at 8.05am
why??

i woke up at 6.15am..
then i was shock to see abg nizam watching tv...
hey its soccer match la..
suddenly i saw walcott and whole bunch of arsenal players ..
and i was like, hey arsenal match...

me: abg nizam, apesal nie??
abg nizam: penalty la..
me: why penalty?? which team??
abg nizam: its penalty shotout!! coz draw..
me: alamak..must watch wait i take my specs coz i cant see... (i was right infront of the tv)
abg nizam: dah sah buta!!!

so i watch the penalty shot out..and Arsenal won!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL HAIL ARSENAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And its abt 6.45am when it ends...waaaaa...i was like..shit confirm late again!!!!!!!!!
wakakakaka...watever is ..i reached workplace at 8.40am...ok la..i gtg..need to do my work before sm and all balik office...

Toodles...
btw farrah... i know u r wearing pink panther panties right??
hahahahahahahaahaha




ps: im addicted to oh sizuka!!!!!!!!!!!!
go check it out guys!!

Random

now at work.. and im under a lot of stress and also in dilemma…damn..

this cant be true..i know ppl are just waiting for me to drop the bomb to leave my current friend.. whom I sincerely love… argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!

morning convo with farrah over the phone


me: woit, what ya wearing???

farrah: 3/4 legging and a long tee….

me: me 2..my gap top and legging..

farrah: and flatsme: same!!!!

at the back…hanis crazy or wat call u early in the morning???hahahahahaha

me: farrah we plan like we work at same place…

farrah: ya lor… always!!!!!!!!!!!!

me: ok im going to blog abt this…

farrah: u dare?? Dun call me ever

farrah seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I blog abt it..bye!!!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

avante seriously…im not sure..

Happy Birthday My Dearest SISTER!!!!!!

Happy birthday kakak!!!!
Hope u like the lil surprise on ur work desk!!!
but u are one damn blur la!!!!
hahahahahahahahaha.....

i rushed frm mrt to CB at ip to get her a cake and called her friend to put it on her desk..
Coz if i do it...ppl wud think that im my sis coz we look alike and furthermore im wearing specs, same style..hahahaha..

yesterday 1st day of work, and i reached home, watch dvd with my sis...
i fall asleep before 10pm...i swear avante gonna laugh when he knows abt this!!!
cepat pulang ya dong!!!! gue rindu kamu!!!!!!
and i woke up at 5.41am..i thot i was late for work..

workwise??
my sit is really beside the section manager...
waaaaaaaaaaaaa he dont dare to disturb me while im working..
and when he asked me to do something while im super busy... as in he disturb me...
i gave him that face (PLS DND!!!!!) he was like, erm sorry sorry...
i didnt really know the ppl there...

only the AD, SM and one temp staff...
and my mp3 and work keep me accompanied...if im really jam, i text farrah and my sis (which is like 2 floor below me)wakakakakakakakaka..and hopefully, i'll be trf to her department..tho is nt fun to be right underneath her nose 24hrs!!!!! but i need a job to support my lifestyle!!!!

today..i suffered a wardrobe malfunction...tho before that i had a 45 mins mini fashion show in my room!!!!!!argh!!!!!! im so use with shorts tee and slippers..nw i need to dress up!!!
oh ya..i love heels!!!wakakakakakakaka!!!!
if avante knows abt this he sure gonna tell me this "next time juz wear ur bikini" in a sarcastic way!!!!!!! he doesnt really like me in those revealing tops and stuff...argh!!!!
i did thot of wearing baju kurung!!! but its gonna be a JOKE of THE DAY!!!
nah it never gonna happen....oh ya.. i better stop now coz im really exhausted...really i have to tahan this job for sometime till i get a better job with better pay.. COZ ONLINE SHOPPING IS ADDICTIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



kakak..i love u so much...
can u pinjam me duit???hehehehehehehe

ok..bye im running away!!!!!!


ps: u knw why working with sister is super duper boring???
coz if i do anything stupid or crazy, my sister going to know...
damn!!! (am suffering from I DUN WISH TO TALK SYNDROM!!!)
coz me and my mouth can put me into deep trouble....

and!!!!!!!! not that i dont like to be with my sis...
i have to start talking nicely to her...if not my bro in law will not give me the hp i want!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and!!!!!!! she gonna keep track of my expenditure!!!!!!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

even now she's holding on to my Atm card.....

and!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ppl say this.... wah you 2 look alike!!!!
wahhh this wahh that!!!! u guys look like twins!!!! STOP IT LA!!!!!

WHATEVER IS!!!!
KAKAK I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MUACKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u know my wish!!!! tho its ur bday!!!!!!bluek!!!!



i guess u all at ktm now...ok i want pisang goreng 1, yong tau fu, and erm... 7up Revive!!!!
thanks!!!!!!!



this is what i call.....suffering from I NEED AVANTE NOW!!! im bored!!!!
farrah wake up...talk to me!!!! ok nvm...toodles ppl...im off to lala land!!!
i wanna meet my boyfie...MR CESC FABREGAS NOW!!!!

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.
every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule.
but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

from farrah's blog...
i agree with it...thanks hun!!!!!

oh ya...im starting work this monday.. sadly...avante cant celebrate it with me...haiz..due to work.
and im sure im gonna spend more money on clothes like i did just now..hahaha...
and the fact that avante and i kept having heated up conversation..all coz of stupid misunderstanding...
and for a fact..avante hide something from me...
wat do u expect... of coz im pissed.. i hate people who dont know me start cursing me and my family for no right of reason.. you dont earn any sympathy or respect from me..not anymore..
i dont care at all now.. if u are smart enough.. you wont curse me and my family...sorry!!!
i know he dont wish to tell me..coz he worry ill get hurt...but his mistake..he didnt hide it properly..aiyo!!!

i told him, i will never gave up hope tho i know..one day we gonna go our separate ways...
why not now??? coz im so sure i cant deal without him... for 6 entire months almost everyday we meet and spend time.. we are close like we are in relationship...but no... we are friends...
and i hope it last..but avante and me know things will not go our way...
so while spending time with him, im still finding for the right one, sometimes with his help...
thanks dear... i appreciate it so much... i know from now, this gonna be a tough for us...
but hey sayang...dont worry...ill always be there for u...no matter what... sampai syurga
i just want the best for both of us... u know me right...nothing but just the best....
so right now, we helping each other and when the time comes, we will be ready to say our goodbye...

so whoever wanna curse me, go ahead...whoever wanna say anything go ahead..i know avante is still here beside me to protect me.... (ya...he's an autobot)

Done with showing off my Arsenal jersey to avante

had fun on friday..
movie outing with avante..
i force him not to drive his car..
i swear it was a big mistake..coz he cant stop nagging..
abt the journey, and the weather kinda hot, and we gotta wait under the sun for the bus..
Damn...i did punch him...wakakakakaka..
and the best part when we bought starbucks..he with his own extraordinary drink..
the barista was like, HUH??????
and i juz laugh..looking at her reaction..
omg!!!

after movie, ya..we watch hes just not that into u..
he gotta go home..some family meeting..
so i went kelantan to fetch isaac..(not kelantan,kelantan msia ok)
and went out with my sis and bro in law...
he's such a hyper...
he had bruises here and there..coz he kept bumpping into things...hahahaha...

saturday another boring day..without him..and i had migraine..fuck!!!

yesterday went to cck..
its like so fun la...everyones present..and isaac..he love bitting my finger..i swear its so painful..
he likes to see me shouting..hahaha

today..woke up..i saw my parcel..yeay my arsenal jersey!!!!!!!!!!
and i met avante...he bought delifrance for me... (but my dad finish it) sorry syg..
and its really coincidence..he wore his liverpool tee..and im wearing my arsenal jersey...done with showing off..
he asked me why i didnt get the navy colour jersey..but who cares..i want my home jersey!!!!
he mintak wat so call my JACKET!!!!!
yes he gave his jacket...hehehehehe..but he asked back coz its freezing out there....
alamak..i swear, i hvnt wash it for like days...mesti bau masam..eeeee (wakakaka)
dear dont wear it to sleep ok...later u got addicted to my masam smell hw..wakakakaka

oh ya...13 more days..i got a date with avante and wawa and the rest!!!!!
MEETING WAT WE CALL OUR KEKASIH HATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!

aurora!!!! yang pernah...

funny right, we even have the same ringtone... aurora...

ok la...off to no where...wait...now here...
argh im bored....missing avante..but i juz met him...

WOIT FARRAH!!!!!TMR WE MEET....GUA RINDU KAMU LOR!!!!!!!

ps:pray hard i got the job tmr...
i want more arsenal jersey!!!!!!!!!