telling my feelings...ending up...i feel more pain...why...
its like farrah told him i feel hurt n all...
n he shouted at me...he said i dun wanna see farrah happy...if i dun wanna see farrah happy..tat nite itself i wont let her be wif u...
he want me to do something tat is impossible for me to do...
its like crazy...
he blame me...he shouted at me...
sometimes its easy to said then done...
to me yes i shud get over him, but it will take a very long...or maybe its impossible...

god...I FEEL LIKE DIGGING OUT THE FUCKING PAIN FROM MY BODY COZ IT HURT SO MUCH...

im sorry farrah if ur life is now in a mess becoz of me...

wat he say is almost 100% true..i shudnt tell anybody wat my feeling or said anything...i regret..

so aft this... im juz gonna keep quiet...n hopes this pain go away...hahaha..hope? i been praying and wishing...but the pain never go away...i been telling n making myself busy n stuff...but i cant let it out... i dunno...i been putting alot of effort to forget him, but it still there...
MY BIGGEST MISTAKE IS TO LOVE HIM.. N I REGRET...
NOW IF U ASK ME IF I STILL LOVE HIM...MY ANSWER IS... I REGRET...

seriously idk whats next...wawa thinks my life worst than a hindi movie...ya but the pain is worst...

farrah let me go for his sake...i mean...i dun wan all this thing to carry on...its hard for me to face the pain...many knows i cant make it...i wanna u both 2 be happy..

i need a break...god pls let me out from this mess....