Somewhere Only We Know

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

No Surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why


It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why



Months knowing Avante and be beside him when i can.
I know part of me is with him,
But i never stop him from meeting or knowing other girls,
and still be there for him,
knowing deep down he still love that some1. I just kept quite.
Follow the restrictions, rules and so on that he wrote with open heart,
but sometimes it feels like im suffocating, i really cant breathe.
Its tiring, the fights, the cries its driving me crazy.
When he's gone, i feel free, tho i miss him like crazy,
but guess what, i found out, EVEN tho im the first he meet, and the last he called everynite, he's mind is with some1 far away..
Then i realised he love that some1 he never met more than me, or im just here to fill the emptiness.
I have to go thru all the pain alone, when i received calls and texts from unknown no, scolding me, thinking im a home wrecker.. I read his phone inbox and i read those msges for me, cursing my whole entire family, ouch it hurts, i confronted him, and he told me to be patience. I never once curse anybody family, why i have to go through all this...
Trust me, I'm just there as a friend and nothing more, and those kisses and hugs are just friendly types, tho it felt so tight and passionate kisses, no, its nothing, coz we are just friends..

I gotta be strong coz now, i know, i got to stand on my own, hopefully without him.

To Avante,
You know, i will always be there for you, we survived for 7 months, sometimes we fought about money and all, and my words hurt u, so does urs 2.. but i never really mean it.
You know it damn well, and you depend on me alot.. So do i..
I'm really sorry this weekend i've been on ur nerve, and we fought for 3 days straight, it's no surprise it ended way earlier than what we expected, if Hungray is where you wanna be, go ahead, but clear the air with that some1, coz im tired being that bad bitch home wrecker person that she thinks i am, and i know im not that person, and u never gave me a chance to defend myself coz u dont want things to get even worst, but today, i had enough, this is the last straw.. i gotta defend myself..

I cant believe i stand strong for 7 months, and gave all up today!

To Farrah and Haziq,
Finally i manage to get up and run..

To All: Dont expect any updates for now...

I need time off, wanna chill with Isaac, and my friends for karaoke and maybe Transformers movie..maybe i shall go alone..I just want to spend time alone..

IM BACK!!
I BOUGHT ARSENAL JERSEY FOR ISAAC HAMZAH!!!
OK LA..BYE!!!!!!!!

Dinner Date With Isaac

Dinner Date with Isaac.. awesome!! we had fun, he's super talkative la now.. but i dont understand what he's really trying to say la..
he said something like >bomba gigi dua < fireman with 2 teeth
kinda confuse...
he called me AN-TY an-na..(my sister name)

then when told him my name, he chnge my name to ty-nis..

confuse2...
and we share a happy meal and oreo mcflurry..

he had 1/4 cheeseburger (mostly the beef n cheese) and 1/2 fries, i had the rest...
how cool....
Avante, let us share a happy meal, hehehehe...

i miss isaac so much...
just like how i miss farrah and avante...
to make things worst, avante now busy with his work that he's hardly in spore, geddit..he's away!! he just left me for work..now im practically lonely during late nite..hehehe..
and i miss him super teruk la... why must he works overseas argh!!!!
ok nvm... work hard.. in a yr time, we go europe ok... save enuff money..then a yr later we buy a new car... i buy and put the first driver my dad, 2nd driver my sis, 3rd u..yeay!!!!! but use ur money ok :P
hehehehehe... so im waiting for him to be back.. and he will take me out shopping!!!

wat ever is, im off to msia again.. 3 weeks in a row... yeay..

last sat we went back to kampung..its been 3 yrs... atuk chnge alot..mybe after the fall, he no longer able to move ard and all, he lost a lot of weight.. so different from what i knw...
weather kinda hot.. but i had fun... off to msia soon, in 2-3 hrs time... with the new FORTE!!!yippeee!!!!!
gonna sleep during the journey..hehehe..as usual..hope that my cousins (the boys 19-22) will be following, so i can have smoke break in between...

im so in love with the song LOCKED IN LOVE...

I cant recognize who iam
when i'm lookin in a mirror(mirror, no, no ,no ,no)
shackled by the love i have for youand i know that u feelin the same
we were once both 2 beautiful minds
attracted to each other
the differences that we had
somewhere along the line we kinda lost out way

so im not just gonna sit around
and let u forget what we were
once there was strength in being together
we need to find keys out of this prison

locked in a prison
in a prison i know that we made
cant we be like the birds an the bees
livin for each day
locked in love, your love, my love, it's our love
it's such a shame

i cant remember the moments
we sharedwhen im staring at the pictures
the ones we hung on the wall
why cant we be like that today
we we're once both glowing with love
drawn into each other
lovin every moment we spent
what can we do to recover that
how did we get so blind
how do we find a way

where's my money

ARGH!!!WHERE'S MY PAY!!I CHECK IN THE SYSTEM, MY PAY WILL BE In TODAY!!!!!I GOT THE REF NO!!
PANDAI RIGHT ME!!!!
SM on leave, i do all this..HEAD is still around...who cares...wakaka
reached work at 11...told my AO i will be late when im just downstairs, taking my life away..wakakaka..
feeling superstar..hehehe

avante came over last night,10.45pm...
i on diet..i didnt even eat...(action merajuk, end up my tummy cant take any food)
so we end up talking for 1 full hour..and while busy talking and smoking our ass off..
mum and dad came back frm jb..so they saw us..
and they just wave and say hi, and walk off.
.amazing huh my parents chnge..more understanding i guess..
till midnite... and as usual, after a fight will end up with a big hug...
actually we still not ok..then i dare him, i know he will not do watever i dare him to do..
i was like 2 steps away frm him, suddenly i know i was in his arms..a tight hug and a kiss frm my cheek..
and everything is all done...we joke, and laugh..and all settle we are back as friends..stubborn la...

btw im meeting farrah in 10 mins time, ok la..wanna chill with her...
im gonna away over the weekend..Msia la where else im gonna go...boo hooo....
let us go shopping!!!hahaha, my parents gonna pay btw..not me..
IM STILL BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi!!!!

Hello..

i feel so down now..
mybe becoz i fought with avante, and the best part was like i juz reached office..
like i juz sit, i havent even on my pc, he called and we start this mini fight...and it change my mood.. (OH BTW I JUST FOUGHT WITH HIM AGAIN. TIME CHECK 6.55PM)

i went home late last nite...ard 2am..
really exhausted..
mybe by now, my sister and bro in law, is otw to johor...stay one nite and my uncle hse,
and off with him and his wife to pahang for the fishing GP..best!!!!!
i wish i can run away to her desk...so not even my team member can disturb me.. wakakakakaka...

2 days without my AO, i did my work fast n perfect, not even 1 human disturb me...
today..she's on my nerve..argh!!!!!!!!!!!

btw..

finally i update..
next week onwards i will be evn more depress than ever...
part of me will be somewhr else...
haiz..

and the most frustrating issue ever is my cousins are like...
argh.....
changing gfs every day!!!!!!!!! and they are like 14!!!!!
my god...when im 14 i have to spend weekends in kl...
everywhr i go, there's family or mybe abg andy and my cousins...
not boys..not bfs!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!

i feel i'm not the hanis i know..i really dont know myself anymore..
too committed to work... i forget my surrounding..
i need to be there for my family... its my responsibility but i seems to let it hanging around..argh!!!
since when im a workaholic!!!!!

SNEAK PEAK TO MY WORLD NOW.... (PIC BELOW)
OH btw i have to climb onto a chair.and one leg on the wall coz there's no space left..
i was the one arranging my team so nobody left out and and the pic turn out perfect, no half face or crop head..
i think 4 ppl missing..
pic taken last friday, celebrate the may babies bday and one temp staff last day...

no boundries

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breath it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thingJust when you think the road is going no where

Just when you almost gave up all your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don't know where the future's headed

Nothing's gonna bring me down

Jumped every bridge I've run every line

I risk being safe, I always knew whyI always knew why

So here I am still holding on

farrah here updating hanis blog

this is the way the bestie is feeling now

ily!!