a dream, will it come thru...is it like a warning sign something gonna happen??
or its juz a mind game while we are asleep...
god... i juz wanna lead a happy life, wif true frens, and my family... that i really love..
save me frm all this hatred...

gosh...

to all out there... lets us juz forgive and forget..
if i offended or hurt ur feelings... im sorry...


oh ya... im gonna donate blood soon...

i wanna proper update.. but i cant..
now i forget what i wanna blog abt...
gosh... aft seeing wawa crush dance n shake his butt... i cant stop laughing...
hahahaha... ok wen i blog abt dancing sure its abt floor fever.. gosh...i miss them..
suppose to meet during overdrive dance party but last min they cancel..
hahahaha.. rugi kn tk dpt meet marty kudelka!!!
only one comment.. alie..dah la tu..cukup la dgn JT....
evn tho ur dance moves different evrytime i saw u guys...but u guys keep repeating the same old song.. my love n sexy back...kita tau la awk 2 peminat setia dia..

wawa, come let us start our new routine..follow their dancestep as our exercise routine, sure we lose few kilo (mcm alie)...but we got to avoid macd everyday if not sure upsize same like bone(his line btw)...hahaha

opsss...

raya outing yesterday was really crazy... i got to spend almost the whole nite till my lil sunshine fall asleep..its really hard to put him to sleep... but i just love him... everytime i saw him, i wud just carry him around.. like my own son..

reached home ard midnite, clean up, quickly change and vroommmm, me sis n bro in law head to johor...everybody, kak weda n hubby, kak lela n hubby n kak lela god bro already waiting for us at singgah selalu since kak lela god bro thinks our usual hang out kinda dead...
singgah selalu really happening... we ordered food and all...
we actually wanna surprise kak lela husband... his bday last week..so we bought cake for him..
we make a dedication.. but the whole singgah selalu actually surprise all 8 of us there...

how it started out wif, kak weda order a cake la there but we didnt know..
the waitress said we can make a dedication, so she asked for the name n age of the bday boy(man), and kak weda told the waitress aft we done wif our supper than send the cake to us..
all of us kinda busy chatting and taking pics... wen the whole team (waiters and waitresses) came and bring the cake.. the dj stop the music and tell everybody there, its abg saniff (kak lela's hubby) bday, and we all have to sing the bday song..
all 8 of us was like shock.. we dont know wats going on wen suddenly the dj stop the music n more than 10 waiters and waitresses came to our table, after they put the bday cake and shout out we all sing bday song (all as in the whole singgah selalu)...we start laughing and wonder why they came without warning.. not only abg saniff got surprise.. we all 2..
it was really crazy, especially for me..coz i was holding a knife n playing wif my fish and chips..
and wen everybody look at us... i saw alot of ppl smiling and laughing...gosh... memalukan..but wow, glamour nya kita tonite!!

im loving jb outing every weekend...besides i get to buy ciggies... from malboro to winston.. my voice back to normal...only that the phlegm still irritates me... i cant stop coughing.. n i can feel the phlegm there but i juz cant spit it out..damn!! i start to hav breathing problems..cut on smoking (trying 2)..

reached home close to 5am, i read a novel till 6.30am.. i fall asleep and guess wat peeps..
i dreamt abt me n full moon going out wif a baby... wth... no!! i woke up at 11am n wonder n than go back to sleep... hahaha..if its ever true.. gosh... his bio clock is ticking rite now.. hahaha..

im so bloody happy!!!
at last i saw him and he smiled at me... i really miss him like so crazy...
thanks to my fren that actually wanna wear tudung soon... serious, if she wears a tudung.. i gonna be ustazah!!! fcuk!!
ok, she hit me so hard to signal to me that he was juz rite above us...
gosh.. i wish i cud go to him, n smack his butt...miss his firm butt 2...hahahaha..

he juz msged me juz now... he thot i called him.. (which i did)
and he even make me jealous, he gonna eat our FAV burger...
French Chicken burger kt burger king...
still remember, 1 yr ago... almost everyday we ate that.. no lunch coz we gonna eat that for dinner..

and its exactly a year ago, last year raya... still remember, we went to esplanade..really crazy...

and in 15 more mins... i get to see full moon on tv!!
yes...full moon!!
another guy i miss...


ps: wawa n lovergirl... email me the pics asap!!!
i wanna post all the pics..

actually theres alot for me to talk abt today...
from saturday n sunday raya outing..(abt the renault megane wif Alonso autograph..)
marty kudelka or wade robson...
JOF finally back in spore!!! yeay!! (had fun wif him aft sch juz now)

and of coz the final showdown of the drivers championship...

battle between raikkonen, alonso n hamilton...

n yes raikkonen won..

both drivers n constructors championship in ferrari hand..

but now.. i feel damn down...
i really hope i cud do something..

juz pray n hope full moon will help me...

will there be terms n regulations??

im willing...
as long... ppl i love happy...their happiness means alot to me...

i won tickets to overdrive dance party!!!
yeay..
im going and i dont give a fuck!!!
my sis left me at home, go jb without me.. ( i know im sick)

but at least go wen im not ah...

so i dun give a damn...im going...


i have no idea where to start...
yesterday my navigator turn 1 month..hahaha
today my car turn 1 month.. hahaha..random huh..

im having fever now..haiz..sucks man...

yesterday i called full moon..

how it started...

me: hello dear!!!
full moon: hi dear.. im so sorry i been so busy...
me: tau tak pe...

full moon: its damn gila gila babi busy.. so hows raya??

me: boring... tk dpt duit raya sgt... nk duit raya boleh??
full moon: can... so now raya is a boring thing for u ah.. tk dpt collections spoils the fun eh..
me: yup..hehehehe..u lak, raya mcm mana??
full moon: my rumah kena pecah masuk bila i balik kampung..semua my things pencuri taw...
me: wtf... so how much all in all u lost??
full moon: you estimate.. few thousands, all my watches and stuff...

me: watches?? damn expensive watches..

full moon: 5 rolex and wif other branded watches...

me: wtf...

full moon: same as ur rumah here right..
me: yup.. we lost abt 300k...
full moon: same fate huh...


raya was ok for me...

had migraine and all.. monday after sch we had birthday party..
thank god tuesday no class..
i enjoy every min...
the part i didnt, wen my so called EX cousins came and ask for forgiveness..

i juz walked away.. 2 years i suffer becoz of them...

even if they lick or eat my shit, i wont forgive them..

washing the cars n motor on eve of raya.. hehe..

vespa...cool..
first day of raya...
atuk and grandmas busy helping him wif his presents..

berasmaradana infront of nek yang n grandma
my nephew n niece, went ard kissing n hugging..haiz..
3 generations.. my mum wearing black sleeveless

happy bithday mikhail, mummy and wathiqah...

its actually wathiqah, My mummy n mikhail..
we need 2 cars transport his bday presents back home.. she got alot of barbies and a DIOR make up set!!!




another candidn pic..
after 2 years, finally we met..
currently single..

grab him fast.. hahaha

the balloons that cost $150...

her bday...
bye balloons..

let go off the balloons..
s 350 , clk 320 and bmw 320i

i swear, benz s class damn comfortable..

she look the same as my sis!!

damn, its a candid..
huggable...
my bantal busuk...
juz bored...
Benz S Class and CLK..
love!!!

she request a pic wif me before leaving...sweet hurt..
cool huh?? my god bro hair
i made this..
one of the best things that happened in my life..
chatted wif him 3 days ago for 1 hour...

worth the time...

enjoy every min...

we talk abt the memories we shared...

first

happy birthday to my dearest adeq...

please adeq.. we all (ur kakaks) love you...

and of coz...

to one and only bboy Dome!!

i juz check out the video (BOTY)

u look great dear...

and

wanna wish all my muslim frens out there...

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin...

ok peeps...

watched ALPHA DOG last nite till 2plus am..

u guys shud watch it!!!

based on true story.. the youngest guy in FBI wanted list..

besides that, JT act in the movie..kudos to him..

hmmm,,go and find a way coz its rated R21...

maybe bring ur dad along..hahaha..

(trust me, daddy pissed of wif the movie, coz got alot of sex scenes)

lagi2 bulan puasa..

i am so addicted to Apologize..

gosh...i cant sleep without listening to apologize n dagger..

and i cant sleep without disturbing jof...

i wonder how i gonna survive without him for 1 week...(he's going aussie for holiday on 14oct)

but he promised me, after that we gonna go night safari...heee best nyer...

oh ya pls make sure u activate ur auto roam, so i can freely call u..

im pissed of with my bro in law...

my sis n him had a mini arguments n he so damn sacarstic..

seriously, i wish i cud juz sepak him..

she's still my sis... n u better treat her well...

my parents treat u nicely, like their own bloody son...

no need to be sacarstic wif my sis...

n my sis treat ur siblings way better than me...

i dun see they help my sis alot...

maybe in a year or so they or i change..

but for now.. i think im way better than any of them..

thats why i dont care if u dont like me to smoke in front of u..

try me..i will take any responsiblity if parents caught me smoking..

and ya, i wanna bantai the laundry guy from Cotton Care Laundy for not calling me to inform he cant sent the curtains on time... bloody hell...

i waited for hours...

cant u bloody hell pick up the phone, dail the number on the receipt n give me a bloody call that u gonna send tmr(later)...

pls ah...if u wanna us to pick it up juz bloody tell us.. we got car n money u idiot..

fish tank...

(i still prefer Butler Laundry and that lady hmm Joan)

i thot i cud at least settle wif the curtains so i left with the bedsheet quilt cover and all.

my task once i wake up later, curtains from balcony, to study area, to kitchen n all the 3 bedrooms..

n one thing i hate wif the curtains, is so damn heavy n got 2 layers..

and the bedsheets and all...

thank god now im on holiday..

saying abt holiday, this monday new semester (final year last semester) damn...

after that, i wanna work..

and i really wish i could work at KL!!

so i can bloody stop that bitch from making chaos in the company...

wat else does she wants...haiz...

i really wish i got a supernatural powers and make her vanish in sec..

and i badly need my own privacy, my own life..

n wat i want..

i think im changing..

i getting to content with things going on around me...

and one thing for sure... life never same without Full Moon...

god.. answer my prayers... i need full moon.. i miss him...

CSI Miami!!

oh horratio..i love u..
back to back... guess which one is my car!!!
look at the traffic!!!
all belongs to me.. hehehe...

To whoever it may concern...

Ok, mat, can u juz stop it.. u hurt my lovergirl over n over again...wat else u wan..she suffer enuff wif u..

i had enuff listening n seeing her sad.. i really mean it..

listen here mat.. if u dare to do anything to hurt her, juz wait n see wat i gonna do..

im gonna make sure, u will celebrate hari raya for the rest of ur life on bed!!

happily watching dvd.. i receive a msg frm my lovergirl telling me she wanna run away..

i thot u change, but hell no, u change only for 3 pathetic weeks n then boom, u back to ur old self..i wish i got the money to hire a assasin to juz kill u!!

u will not go far in life wif the way u treating her...

me being emotional, yes.. coz i see the way u treated her..

u r not her husband yet.. u r still a nobody.. n im bloody hell sure, there are better guys for her out there..trust me..

and im not ready to lose a fren that i treasure..

if this country is a free country, u wud be the first person in my bantai list..(paid, coz i dun wan my hands to get dirty)




ok start wif saturday, i watch f1 qualifying..

clean the windows...haiz...
dyed my daddy hair...(became hairdresser)
wen to tamp wif parents, came back, wen out wif sis n bro in law...plus his sis n husband..
all 5 of us went to johor close to 1am... came back almost 6am...damn tired..

formula one race again shows the competition going on between ferrari n maclaren...
the drivers champion is still at stake... im putting my money on hamilton n raikkonen...
im sure f1 fans also thinks alonso dont deserve to win this year title wif his bullshit attitude...
sorry alonso fans out there... i dont think his racing standard is as good as when he used to race for renault, n he keep on talking abt the spy scandal, wanting to be no 1 driver n all...(i juz hate him) no sportmanship..

so ya, kimi won the race, alonso 2nd...3rd massa...
hamilton dnf... why coz he made a stupid mistake on the way to the pit lane...haiz..
but its ok...2 more weeks till the chequered flag, i cant wait...

aft f1, wen out wif sis n her fren to vivo... break fast at ramen ten..yummy...
i saw this jacket cost $132.. im getting it for next year event... hahaha..

yesterday, we went to johor again.. ya the 5 of us..
i juz love the trip to jb... the fun n laughter we had... gila...
but wat spoilt the mood is wen i had migraine...
reached home close to 3am..

slept till 9... suppose to meet Wawa n Saz, but...i cant... i juz have to take all the pills coz the attack really killing me..
woke up close to 4pm get ready and off i go n meet Ismail n Jof (for record they both are best frens) since jof came 1 hour later.. he pay for the foods..(actually celebrating ismail bday)
i saw ayu... wait, she saw me 1st... hahahaha... i look so dead.. the sleeping pills really took control of my body... i was dragging my feet all the way..
thanks to jof coz he send me home again... n i gonna miss him, coz he going aussie on the 14sept..

while watching ocean 13 i fall asleep...
i love movie marathon wif daddy so far we watch -rogue assasins, bourne ultimatum, game plan, ocean 12 n 13..
he nag coz i bought alpha dog...(r21 movie) hahaha..
i juz cant help it.. got justin timberlake...
trust me i look super free n relax, but fyi, i been busying cleaning my hse...n i really wish i cud sleep early...but i cant...

ps: do i still look like a man??

shout out to my fren!! SAMIR!!!
i just found out he's now a radio deejay only yesterday.. Hitz.FM..
damn samir!! i miss u!! now i can listen to u everyday frm 10-1...hahaha...

back to my life, im seriously feeling damn useless...
im stress...
abt granny, family and of coz my results...
results sucks..im not blaming anybody...(damn i juz cant do all this)
taking care of granny can be very tiring for me..
but no... im not blaming granny...(cant my cousins use their brain n visit nenek)
all i need is some1 to juz comfort me now...
my dad been scolding n fighting with me...
at times, im so tired.. but i cant sleep..coz things disturb me...(i been taking panadols n all to sleep but still i cant sleep)
the sentence i look like shrek n man still disturb me..
i keep wondering do i look like a man...(i asked more than 10 guys thats close wif me, they say no)never...
and all i need is full moon, but i couldnt get him on the phone..whats going on...

sorry if i never replied msges or answer calls...
lately unknown nos msg me, first, 1 guy got my no coz some1 send him a business card,
second got my no from dunno who, thinking im his camp mate la...
wat the hell...

damn, im losing grip... im giving up... seriously...

im addicted to One Republic song

Apologize....

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground

And I'm hearing what you say

But I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down

But wait...You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

(But that's nothing new)

Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue

And you say

Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground...

i juz love the song...

god... im really really having bad migraine!!!

hardly sleep, wake up early...got alot of things to do...

damn...

i got the latest map for my hp..peeps, enjoy the pics...

my freaking love!!

oh ya, watchin balls of fury n my latest hp...

wat we gave to our clients
i know its nice....
hahahaha... the details..

i tried everything and its damn nice!!

jof thinks its so irritating (the anything u can do i can do better song)
hahahaha..

while he busy working, he kept singing that song...

mummy n daddy left for kl early in morning...after sahur...before 5am
im not allowed to follow!!!
sobs...(i miss kl like crazy)
he is so damn lucky coz can to be parents only child n get to go kl...(bingai, sms never reply)
n i got so damn bored, (keep calling both parents hp, asking where they are n what they do there)..
found out mum at condo, dad n the rest resting at hotel after they went office...

but now they are on the way back home!!! YEAY!!!!
cant go there for so long coz tmr dad have to send granny for x-ray n check up...

oh yes.... we 3 settled everything thats going on... i forgave them... n i hope they 2...
its all over... n we clear all misunderstandings... we shud all thank god for everything..

AND GUESS WHAT!!!
i will be baking some kuih for hari raya!!! NO JOKE (do forget buy toto or 4d)
i wonder how it will turn out... my first time... n i gonna make sure i will try till im satified wif my work!!! i only accept compliments (for the kuih) hahahaha... n i will bring to sch if it turn out nice.. if not i will let all my family to finish it..
wen my brother in law got to know abt it.. he laugh so damn loud (worst than king kong)
hahahahaha.... got to compliment him abt his cooking (ya he cook for us, break fast just now) mummy not at home so he just cook fried rice... nice but hot!!

oh i had my crazy moments wif eqa... she wanna dyed her hair green, so i told her, why not i dyed my hair red n faz yellow... (traffic light) hahaha...

i know its so random n all.. but im bored to death... ok fine!! I MISS MY PARENTS!!!
HAHAHAHA... i do ok.. coz nobody i can fight wif...hahaha..

ok la..wednesday i can fast!! yeay...
oh no results!!! argh!!! 2 more days...
how many days to raya?? i lost count... nvm..

bye, take care...