i got alot to blog about..
please wait ok..
now im having headaches and sunburn!! and bodyaches..
omg.. pls clear my mind.. i cant take it anymore if he's acting this way!!

ok...HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINIE!!!!!

had fun yesterday...
and while im out wif suhana at tamp... buying bubble tea, some1 msg me..

he: hey are u in tamp...
me: ya why??
he: hahahaha buyin bubble tea??
me: yes i am, where are you??
he: i saw u, i juz passed u..btw u r pretty

straight i called him, and asked him, where is he..
coz i dunno this guy and he knows me...
argh!!!!!


wat will u do when ur 8 yrs old cousin nick put her nick as this
'now i has break up with my best friend'

i was shock to read it...
i know wat happened between her and her bestfriend... gosh...
so my sis went to talk to her, asking wat happened la...
evn tho my sis knew everything frm me, but she want further explanation from my cousin..guess what my cousin replied...

"now i dont want to think about it anymore"

wat the hack...she just 8, and the way she talks about it like she 18, and going thru real break up wif bf... haiz... even i dun think that way... guess she too mature... haiz....

pics of last nite karaoke session..

hehehehe...

AND YIPEE!!! RAIKKONEN WON!!!

WAKAKAKAKA...

piss at massa for the stupid mistake he did!!!

wth!!!!

it shud be 1-2 win for ferrari...

haiz!!!

watever is..ferrari prove they are the best...
i mean.. look, last week they had a suck weekend..
wif the problems they had...
they manage to find the solution to it.. and now they are back on top...
ok... guys... enjoy the pics...


GO GUNNERS!!!

LATER GOT SOCCER MATCH...

MAN U VS LIVERPOOL
(LIVERPOOL GONNA KICK MAN U ASSES!!!) WEEE HAAAA...

ARSENAL VS CHELSEA..
(WENGER BOYS GONNA KICK AVANT BOYS ASS) IM SO SURE!!! WAKAKAKA

kenangan terindah

(ring!!!!)

gosh.. it makes me wanna cry!!!

oh god.. i think i look fat!!

CARWASH!!!

the car feel fresh after a nice wash!!

ok im bored at home!!!
formula one pole position goes to MASSA!! MIGHTY MASSA!!!
the result!!

1. Felipe Massa, Ferrari
2. Kimi Raikkonen, Ferrari
3. Jarno Trulli, Toyota
4. Robert Kubica, BMW Sauber
5. Nick Heidfeld, BMW Sauber
6. Mark Webber, Red Bull
7. Fernando Alonso, Renault
8. Heikki Kovalainen, McLaren PENALTY wakakakA!!!
9. Lewis Hamilton, McLaren PENALTY FOR BLOCKING CARS AT THE END OF Q3
10. Timo Glock, Toyota
11. Jenson Button, Honda
12. David Coulthard, Red Bull
13. Nelson Piquet, Renault
14. Rubens Barrichello, Honda
15. Sebastian Vettel, Toro Rosso
16. Nico Rosberg, Williams
17. Giancarlo Fisichella, Force India1
8. Sebastien Bourdais, Toro Rosso
19. Takuma Sato, Super Aguri
20. Adrian Sutil, Force India
21. Anthony Davidson, Super Aguri

22. Kazuki Nakajima, Williams





i love my night life!!!
last night ard 3am i went to jb wif sis, bro in law, castello, kak weda and husband...
yipeee... and i juz receive a call from sis!!!
we going karaoke.... ayuh!!!!! yipee!!!!!!!!!!!!


juz now... before my sis call me...

this is wat i did...




Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:28 PM):
wei

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:28 PM):
chips more tipu aku

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:28 PM):
dia ckp lebih coklat

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:28 PM):
tapi aku tgk mcm sikit je

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:28 PM):
aik siapa chips more?

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:28 PM):
ah si advertisment nya

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:28 PM):
siakz je

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:29 PM):
biscuit chips more

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:29 PM):
aku tgh makan nie

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:29 PM):
kao kire ke dia nya choc chip beb?

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:29 PM):
ahhhh sedpa nya beb ako nak cikit leh?

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:29 PM):
boleh belah

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:30 PM):
ahaha aku kira the chips more

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:30 PM):
wahaha

Corinna Insyirah.. says (11:30 PM):
boring wei

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:30 PM):
kao ni botol2 nya bosan eh sampai kire chipsmore nya chips

[b][a=1][c=8]♥ khai®ul™ ☑ <>[/c=36][/a=61][/b] says (11:31 PM):
tu ah beb





OK PEEPS BYE!!!! STAYING HOME WIF DAD CAN MAKE ME GO CRAZY!!!!!!!!

im alrite now.. but i wish i cud go out now!!!

i cant no longer take it staying at home wif my dad...

and im fucking hungry now...cool!!!!

i wanna meet mika!!!!
wakakakaka, my signature wif the rest!!!
join the pact..
who knows u win the lucky draw...
hehehehe

i feel like a fool...

once again.. im hurt....
why ???

haiz...

today.. 20 march...

gosh.. i do miss him. (my past)..

but i focus on other things.. but

the other things (its another guy)

he juz hurt me...

oh god...

i need to be strong...

it juz hurt me..

and my broken heart break into smaller pieces again...

how to fix it???

i need time to patch it up.. argh!!!!

i hav stop smoking.. i mean.. i no longer need it...

but now

I FUCKING NEED IT!!!!

DAMN IT!!!

I HATE GUYS THAT HURT ME!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!

STOP CRYING!!!!!!

miss P decided to come and visit me today..
and becoz of that..i was moody the whole day that my fren became my punching bag..everything i scold him..god.. he woke up late also i scolded him.. gosh.. sorry eh...

and i slept from 5pm till 10 pm..gosh... maghrib also i juz ignore..coz i cant take it..
the pain and cramp...
and still in pain now...damn..

last night my mp3 jam while i charge it.. i cried coz.. i lost abt 10 songs.. i didnt make back up...
the rest abt 420 songs i have to go thru all folder in both laptop and desktop..
its my bday present..and less than 3 months it go crazy..damn la....haiz...

i really wanna cry.. coz its been ages ever since BOTH the single seater car from maranello retire in a race...i was like..wat the fish man!! now ferrari reliability been question..will they make it in the next race which is this weekend at sepang, and of coz, sepang weather, is worst than albert park track...haiz... ferrari pls do something!!!

and now i found a new kaki to watch f1 with..
wawa!!
she starting to like f1..evn tho she like hamilton and nelson piquet jr.. (nelson sr maha legend)
and im only into ferrari...but its ok...
hahahaha

and i just kena maki from my dad for dunno wat reason..
i juz ans a phone call and busy watching tv..suddenly he show me the bloody middle finger!!
argh.... and he kinda irritate me...omg
i have to face him till results out...ok...
wish me all the best....

and when i asked when is the EX FORMULA ONE CHAMPION Mika Hakkinen meet the fans session with johnny walker black label...

he said 20 april when its 20 march..nabey!!

he knows i wanna go meet mika..

and he do this...haiz...i wonder which hantu follow my dad home from holiday..hahaha

guys!!
im so excited...frm far i can smell something.. its like the smell of tyres and fuel burning...

i can hear the roar of a 700plus horse power engine...am i imagining stuff??

nah!!!!

FORMULA ONE SEASONS STARTS THIS SUNDAY!!!

FINALLY MY 5 MONTHS WAIT WILL END ONCE THE FIVE RED LIGHT TURNS GREEN!!

and visit to the the singapore pools, every 2 weeks will be a must..

coz now there F1 Betting!! yeay!!

and i really love my cousin Solhan!!
why??

his msn nick is this
I am No.1 fan of Arsenal and by the way man u sux to the core!!!

i love u la cousin!!
hahahahaha...

now, its 3.54 am..
and i just blackmail my sis!!
hahahahaha....
when abang nizam call from work..
i sneak in to my sis room and did something very very bad to her!!! (im not going to tell you guys what i did) but its something bad...

abg nizam just came back and i told abg nizam what i did...
and done!!

last year september... i did the same to abg nizam.. now its my sis turn...

fair and square la eh...

to my beloved sister...
i love you...


ps: moral of the story.. lock ur room!! hahahahaha..

yipee!!!
yahoo!!!!

i've graduate from ite simei!!!

not officially la..

have to wait for the graduation day...

today last paper..

auditing..

and after that the kanak2 ceria went to tampines food culture for the last dinner as ite students

celebrate the end of ite life!!

its kinda sad..bloody 2 years.. we gone thru alot...

laughter, tears, fights... everything...

now its all memories!!!!!

i wanna cry when we went out separate ways...

but hey... we can contact and always plan for an outing....

since ninie promise us, she gonna bake sheperds pie for us!!!

HEY GUYS!!!

(farrah, suhana, adeq, mashas, ninie, izza, naz and alot more)

thanks for everything ok...

remember, jangan lupa aku...

kalau krg nak kahwin ke... jangan lupa jemput aku!!!

i hate exams!!!

everybody hate exams...
i called my parents and cried..telling them the paper is so damn hard..
they said its ok...

went back home.. i help my sister to clean the hse...
vacuum... abg nizam already cook nasi lemak for dinner...
and abg nizam surprise my sis wif a bday cake...yummy!!!

we 3 share the whole cake... 1kg cake...hahahahaha

abg nizam eating the cake..
mini celebration...

the cake!!!

my sis!!

abg nizam surprise her, while she busy doing the laundry!

my so call boyfrens!!

perasan!!

my dining table

turn study table...

i send my dad this!!
(using my mum hp)

wen im bored!!! i look so makcik!!

I MISS MY DAD MILO!!!!!!!!!

my okok milo...

my sis that make for me...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST SISTER!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..


boo Man U for yesterday match.. manage to watch it while chilling wif my frens at clark quay last nite... i know its fa cup... still its so kental for them to throw the game away like that..

i met damien ve also....(he's here for the gangstarz thingy)
yup my kl fren came over for coz he's in the gangstarz production crew...

now im watching arsenal match!!!! go arsenal!!!!!!! fabregas van persie... i love you

tmr exam.. oh wish me good luck pls!!!!!

i miss my parents... waaaaa.....
friday they went short honeymoon trip to kelantan and terengganu...
hehehehehe..
i miss my dad milo...i cant wait for wednesday night.. and straight i gonna ask my dad to make me a cup of milo...

circle in black...

its 2.48am and i just had a short shower...
coz i got mozzies bites all over.. fuck..

to stop me from scratching it, so i wash myself again.. and use the lighter to stop the itchyness..

on my right wrist i have 3 bites.. this mozzies gonna be damn fucking full sucking my blood...

do u always trust what ur heart says??
its freaking me out..



i went to farrah's hse.. i mean swimming pool area to study with the rest..
when i took the bus.. my heart keep telling me NOT to go...
but i just ignore it...
when i reach the place.. my heartbeat rate damn fast...
did 2 questions..

ard maghrib izza and mashas went to siglap to buy dinner, and farrah went up to her hse for dinner...

left me and su..

i told su i really miss shaun...

i cried and stuff...

(after saturday, i pretend im alright and didnt cry anymore)

waited for ninie, ate our dinner...

resume back studying.. and suddenly i just felt uneasy.. more uneasy...

farrah told me, shaun coming over tmr...

i was like, oh ok...

in my heart, i felt like he's here now....

finish up one question.. and....

i went to the baby pool to chill...

i felt his aura... it freaky....

so i juz go to the end, and sit... and look up in the sky..

and suddenly i cried...

farrah came over and tell me this..

actually babe...

he's upstair kat rumah aku...

i was like, what the fuck...

i wanna go home now...

i cant stop crying...

i realised i really love him...
i called some ppl.. that will save me if i fall (thats wat they said)

he told me to meet shaun.. but i cant.. i think if i meet shaun now..

i wud juz continue crying instead of talking or i wud juz fell down...
sometimes wen u realised u love some1...but its already too late..coz that person already left u..

i no longer have feeling for full moon or whoever...

coz wen i make the decision to be wif shaun.. im ready and i love him...

now...everybody in depress mood...

and 1 litre of tears is really damn sad..

i guess today alone, i cried more than one litre of tears...

today i study all alone at home...
did 2 questions..and i feel i wanna tear the papers...hahahaha
ok relax... left 4 more days to exams... oh fish...

early morning i watch soccer...
yup ac milan vs arsenal...
again..kaka, pato and fabregas are sizzling hot la!!
i cant resist..
i watch... and when fabregas score the 1st goal at 84 mins.. i was like..yes ah!! finally!!
i slept about 6.30am.. and till now im feeling tired.. later got soccer, but im not watching it..
last nite soccer match bring thousands of memories..especially wen he kutuk arsenal and i will kutuk man u back.. gosh... i freaking miss him...

i pity my fren...

im sorry..becoz u called me and mulut i masin sangat...

now u kena saman...

300 bucks for talking on the phone without handsfree while driving...

hahahahahaha...

welcome to the saman club.....

and next time listen to my advice!!



current fav song!!!

ungu- untukmu selamanya

tak pernah aku mengerti
apa yang kini kurasakan
kegelisahan hatiku saat ini
ku masih merindukanmu
walaupun kini kau telah bersamanya
tak pernah mampu kucoba lupakanmu

sungguh tak bisa ...
ku mengganti dirimu dengan dirinya
sungguh tak sanggup...
aku berpaling darimu

sungguh tak bisa...
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup...
aku berpindah dari hatimu

sungguh tak bisa ...

ku mengganti dirimu dengan dirinya

sungguh tak sanggup...

aku berpaling darimu X2

sungguh tak bisa...
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup...
aku berpindah dari hatimu



thats what im feeling now...

its so complicated...

i mean i didnt expect it to end so fast and then a few guys came to me and confess their feelings...and it will end wif a fight coz i dont wanna to accept it... coz im still in love wif my ex...

and i just told my cousin abt me and my ex... he gave me a long advice...

i admire his love toward his gf... and they been together for FOUR years and counting...

here his long list of advice...





udin says (1:31 AM):
u have high expectation on guys...

udin says (1:32 AM):
learn to accept their personallity

udin says (1:42 AM):
but if u truely love him, u will eacept him to whom he is rite

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:42 AM):
yup...but it does affect the relationship...

udin says (1:45 AM):
atleast he earns a decent and honest living.

udin says (1:45 AM):
atleast it pays the bills

udin says (1:45 AM):
atleast u are still fed decent food rite?

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:48 AM):
it complicated..especially wen other girls are involve..

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:48 AM):
and wen assurance and appreciation is not there...

udin says (1:48 AM):
side tracked

udin says (1:49 AM):
we were talking abt accepting to whom he is

udin says (1:49 AM):
a good life begins with your self

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:49 AM):
pls continue...

udin says (1:50 AM):
i mean, everything that u do, u should look at ur self first...

udin says (1:50 AM):
know ur self.

udin says (1:50 AM):
understand ur self

udin says (1:50 AM):
except ur self,

udin says (1:51 AM):
and then, other people..

udin says (1:51 AM):
know what u want.

udin says (1:51 AM):
to be..

udin says (1:52 AM):
ego is always in e way of a relationship. so put that ego aside..

udin says (1:53 AM):
forgive, but u must know when to be strong..

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:54 AM):
hmmmm

Corinna Insyirah.. ich liebe dich says (1:54 AM):
u are so true..if he cud spend a min a day for me.. i part to be blame

udin says (1:55 AM):
u both ar to be blame u see...

udin says (1:55 AM):
u dont set aside time for each other...

udin says (1:56 AM):
being in a relationship is astually a responsibility...

udin says (1:56 AM):
know that u are attach

udin says (1:56 AM):
look after his heart..

udin says (1:56 AM):
acknoledge him...

udin says (1:57 AM):
tell him ur okay..

udin says (1:57 AM):
be there when he is down..

udin says (1:57 AM):
know how he is feeling everyday..

udin says (1:57 AM):
hmm

udin says (1:57 AM):
i can go on but ,

udin says (1:57 AM):
mdm is waiting for my call.

udin says (1:58 AM):
will continue alright

udin says (1:58 AM):
nextime

udin says (1:58 AM):
nitez


now u know why his relationship last... and guess what.. im not really close wif him, call him only if i need a smoking partner....
yet wen he gave me advices... im was so sad.. coz... i didnt really do that wen im in a relationship..

me and my partner dont practice that...

thanks cousin..

i will practice all this next time...

hopefully i get another chance to be wif him...

today its juz me and mashas at farrah swimming pool to study...

but we ended up having karaoke session...

and they make me cried, coz they sang the song kekasih gelapku..

for the first time farrah sang a malay song!!!

omg... hahahahaha.. i gonna strike 4d!!!

yes,im single...
it was a clean one..

i was already at the losing end.. i dunno wat to do..and prepared myself..
wen he decide and msg me.. i agree to it...

i admit, i feel so damn sad.. but
i know, its the right decision..
we both dont want to hurt each other anymore...

after he msged me, i cried for a short while, called my sis.. i wanna go fishing wif her..
and msg castello to fetch me...

he and abg nizam bro in law fetch me abt 5.30pm, and off we go to bedok jetty!!!
i had alot of fun...
i went to the beach all alone.. and..
write his name on the sand and wait for the waves to erase it..
and i got carried away... i juz stand and stare... telling myself.. now its time for exams...
evrybody i mean my family thats with me yesterday was damn nice to me...
and they tell me to chill.. im alright...


and guess wat...my baby nephew isaac hamzah came abt 10.30pm..yes....
and when the rest went to the end of the jetty leaving me and him all alone... he kinda sleepy, and i put him to sleep...

i cant find my hp in my handbag, as i cant bend down coz im carrying him, so there's this hot guy help me... and he asked me this.. hmmm so this is not ur child right.. i was like.. erm no..my nephew.. hahaha... gosh.. i wish i can hav his no.. but its ok...

today i went to tamp, wat else to study.. and guess wat.. on the way home in bus 8, i saw a hot guy.. from my school.. wearing a jersey... and guess what... i saw his name.. and guess wat we share the same name.. yup.. his name is Hanis.. yes HANIS!! and i called suhana straight.. i wanna find this hanis on tuesday.. i dont care.. hahahaha.. tuesday is the last day of school..hahaha..



Selamat Malam Sayang... (i miss him saying this, it makes me cair...)

one ringtone that i will miss hearing it.. put a lil umph in it.. by jagged edge.. his ringtone if he calls me.. gosh..