ok, 3rd post of the day!!

im so fucking downright emotional!!

full moon thinks im so messed up...he hates me

i know why, coz i choose my ex n not him...

how could i...

how could i not be so pissed off wif him, wen he commented this, wen u wif ur ex, ur eyes are like diamonds, so sparkling...i cud see sparks of happiness...

i dunno...

im so jealous seeing nini n wif the guy tat love her, eqa n faz...but me...all alone

i felt so left out...or its juz my feelings??

i dunno...

i cried alot...

knowing i love him so much,

but wen i realise he had something against me...

faz n eqa ask me to do tis!

leave him,

and for the last time in my life

i wud be saying tis... i love hafiz...

n i realise, no matter how much i love him, i juz cant have him back,

loving doesnt mean i must have him....

he shud juz be my past n not my present nor future... he hav hurt me so badly but still, im down here waiting for him....haiz...hanis move on la dey...hahahaha

mcm gaduh je
bdk2 hanyut yg tk berapa betul

hantu pocong sesat warna hitam

BILA RINDU

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

MY SIS GONNA FUCKING KILL ME!!

the flash frm my hp make me so white

sweet couple, not forgetting my fingers!!

asst manager pateint n half of Doctor love aka manager

manager yg cuma tau act macho n potong gaji asst manager

but tk tau nk bayar gaji!!

dealing wif jealousy is normal in life
but why sometimes we cant hide our jealousy??

wawa, me and farrah...we dealing with tat...
wawa wants to be pretty and slim, but does she know that she is already pretty, she been scaring me wif all sorts of msg, i feel so bad not being beside her, helping her, but listen here wawa, aft my exam i promise i will go to the gym wif u, i will help u...

farrah, in life there's only one best fren
u are my best fren,
no matter how many ppl came in my life...
there's only one farrah faith...
the rest are my close frens, ya i admit, nini n eqa they understand me well n i understand them well evn without communicating coz aft wat happened recently, me eqa n nini talk alot...from there we all understand each other...

someting u n me never did, we did communicate, but we always ended up making jokes...

but i never put the 1st 2nd or 3rd, i love u eqa n nini the same, u all are no 1 to me...

yes all this while we point fingers at each other, blaming one another, but the mistake lies in ourself..
we never admit,but wen we go our separate ways, then we realise how badly we miss each other company, u hate seeing me smoking, u always say this, if haziq sees u smoking, he will for sure scold me for not taking care of u...
i never want to make ppl suffer for my own actions, yes i did...but i ignore, im sorry...i miss those days u me and haziq, juz 3 of us, still remember, we went out suddenly i had leg cramps, u n haziq laugh like mad ppl on the lose, do u know how much i miss those days?? its like stress free day!! something i never get to enjoy these days, now a days, u can see me so stress n messed up...
things change for a reason, wen u said u need time, n i really gave u all the time wen u know i actually dun wanna give u the time but ended up i gave u... then u realise we miss alot of things...
i know this gonna happen n im ready for it... im ready to explain to u...
coz i know wen i give u the time, it gonna change everything, n now u see, me and u are not like wat we are use to be.... we drift... we goin apart...
i never want tis to happen...

now, i dunno how to start up everything all over again n make it the way it was... but babe,
i never replace u wif eqa or nini, nobody can replace u...
n nobody can replace them, i treat everybody equally...
wen they

im sorry for everything....
eqa nini farrah adk wawa, and to all
i really love u guys, i may not show it or say it, but the truth is, i really love u guys...
if i hurt u or so, forgive me...

juz last nite, i msg a few ppl, hmmmm i really need a new me... i mean im so hurt wif some stuff involving my past,
now all i want is to move on n never look behind...
i will only cherish those happy moments wif everybody, but some, its juz better for me to buried it wif the old hanis...
new n old hanis, nothing change only that the old hanis, is some1 very2 emotional n weak...
now i wanna be strong, i wanna share my time wif farrah, eqa, nini, ezan, wawa adk, my other frens, n of coz family...no bf at all!!!!

i wanna tat!! i wanna be happy n crazy!!!

i had all sort of fun wif everybody....

andd all of them are different nobody can replace them...

this are like my love now...

i miss full moon so so much!!!!
guess he tired wif all the driving n all tat he forget to call me back!!
yesterday was whole lot of fun!! hahahahaha
now watching justin timberlake new video, what goes around!! superb
juz now chatted wif nini bro, he asked me to go to his hse tmr... n we fight over amelia..hahahaha.. i dunno if i shud or not...
hahahaha...will publish the pics i took yesterday soon

damn damn damn...
today went to school late..as usual, eqa waiting for me at simei wif faz..
reached school real late, wen follow eqa to print out her project at claz 0320..not wrong la...we ask permission for one teacher...mrs png if not wrong..hahaha...aft print she scared to meet ms annie koh or her malay name tat my claz gave her, ms siti aini..hahahaha...merepek... ok she scared coz we didnt go to her claz early morning, so i hav to send on her behalf, konon2 (pretending) i went to her house to take her project n submit for her coz she sick...mak datuk...hahaha..

then me n eqa sit at botanic garden...hahaha n we saw fadzil cousin.... he so so so hot...there u can see eqa n hanis going crazy n hyper, main2 mata wif 1 hot guy... funny sia the incident..before tat we saw hafiz.. ya my ex.. alot of times, but it gets so so bad wen aiz came...after he went smoking he sit wif us for 1 hour there... n he also talk abt hafiz...hahahaha..
i found out...hafiz has a girlfren...a nursing student...haiz...
after iac claz, me n eqa plan to do homework, i saw him again n again n again...aft 3 hours in cafe 1, i went to toilet, i saw him, went i wanted to go in to cafe 1, i saw him again, i saw him in front of me, walking pass me... n goin straight to bus stop 31... then i ok la... he's goin home, hmmmm then wen i finishing my hmwk, eqa uses her file n cover my face...ask me not to turn, suddenly i heard faz said this, tat guy muka dia mcm 1 of ruffedge guy(faz didnt know who tat guy tat look like amer is to me), so i turn n hafiz came in cafe 1 from back gate... haiz... confused rite... from main gate where bus stop 31 is, he shud juz use the over head bridge n take bus 31 there straight to tamp... tis, he walk to back gate oppsite expo... damn shoot sia... he went get a drink, then go to the chicken rice shop which is near to where im sitting, damn hell him, we quickly leave cafe 1, use back gate oppsite expo to go to bus stop 12, toward tanah merah mrt...
i talk to faz, faz was like shock la that he didnt know hafiz look like amer...hahahahaha
ok abt halfway to the bus stop since we have to cross the road and all, i saw hafiz n fren juz oppsite me, i was like wtf...haiz...damn shit..

haiz... why i saw him like alot of times.. in a day... i miss him, i love him, but its juz hurting me from the way he acted... farrah said he say hi n vice versa wif farrah, but wif me....he acted as tho we are strangers...

HAPPY VDAY LOVERS!!!

I miss some1 badly...its him...

u know rite who??

its hard sometimes for me to let him go....

i receive this from eqa, my closet lesbian...hehehehe..really appreciate it...love her alot!!

watever is, thanks for the wishes and all...

my adk suraya... i guess wud be over the moon now, coz finally zain ruffedge add her in myspace...she use my account to msg zain, coz tat time i add zain, i guess so... so others wanna add him, need his email address...see wat she msg zain.. cute rite!!

actually diz is not corinna..... diz is her fren, suraya.. kak hanis lemme borrow her acc so dat i can send u diz... i told her i wana add u but unfortunately i cant.. she said use her acc, if wana say anything to u.. she's very kind hehe.. sorry to disturd u..

actually just wana say, u're cool, great, n cute.. u're talented, one and only zain ruffedge in diz world.. superduperfan number one of u i am.. kalo tak caye bley tny sape2 pun.. haha.. uhuh..

the only question i wana ask is.. bila nak mai penang???? lama lah tak jumpa korang RE kat cni!!

huhu.. okay alot more to ask,but very short time now, have to stop typing.. i hope there will be a positive respond on diz.. hope to be among ur frenz.. really do.. tq for reading, i would appreciate that.. looking forward to meet u again.. bfo diz year ends if possible..

love the show..

p/s:looove ur song with ve n urban exchange, sabarlah.. soothingg sngt! cute je and kene with my life i think..huhu.. keep it up! cpt2 la kuarkan album.. cpt2 la brlakon lg.. take care..

Suraya

cute rite wat she msg zain...n now she so happy, get to see zain profile somemore...hehehehe...
i hope tat she is happy rite now...
i juz now need a rest...im tired..i reach home abt 810pm...tired...

me n eqa, our own world

closet lesbian!!

my life totally sucks... sch been so tough for me day by day...accounting, really kepala pening, no wonder lately i been having migraine, n juz now, i vomitted aft accounting test, so stress... trying to quit smoking, but i kinda, had this feeling like, or in other words. i dun have confident passing my exam!! fuck damn!!! im using stress as the reason coz i smoke...

hahhaaha....i really goin crazy wif school...argh...

but ya i found few ppl call me gemuk n triple H in school...damn shoot!!

this guy...he look copy cut paste like alie ffc...wow, mickey looks like dome, tis guy looks like alie...

hmmmmm its like sunday today.... hahahhahaa...i cant take it for wat happened to me last nite, recap!!! i got a big mickey cushion coz i got 1382 tickets for playing arcade... isa help me alot in the game,while eqa n her god bro n frens played pool... i exchange it for the mickey cushion...hahahaha... best kan... well some1 kissed me on my right cheek...hahahahaha...wait who the guy tat kiss me, hahahhaahaha secret...someone i like since 2005!!! hahahahahaha... im still sick, but yesterday since it was a last min decision, i juz go wif the flow...ended up a wonderful nite!!! i had fun...real fun!!!

here are the pics of fun i had...

im still sick but... i got few reasons to smile!!

hmmmm playing pool

saufi eqa n me

eqa n me

ps2 warriors!!!

me n faz

eqa caught me

waiting for manager...

fierce me!!!

miss childhood days

manja2 wif adk

angel me

model mikhail

cheeky mikhail

reflection of me on the car

damaged done on the car by mikhail

finding for food!!!

cheetos lover!!

asking someting from his maid

yeah dush dush dush...

sound effect mahal sia..

well this past 2 weeks im been blessed... hmmm my daddy gave me a frank muller watch...dun ask the price coz i know its damn expensive... i can buy more than 5 n73... without line...and my grandma gave me diamond earings....love it but juz so scare to wear it....beside tat she gave me a gold ring which im wearing...everyday on middle finger... juz love tat way...but i really appreciate it...its like i never expect all tis...but i really love the watch n the presents tat my nenek gave me...

hahahaha chatting wif slow instead of eqa.... fyi, slow is eqa bf...actually his name is faz...but u know me... he call me asst manager of u knoe who... n i call him manager, or sometimes doctor love, or sometimes slow..

he will only give the manager post if he fired my full moon which is like got nothing to do wif our doctor love business...
eqa's doctor love.... wit lanyard on....tats my lanyard... n he using a fake specs...

here are faz frens pics..they are really crazy... wen the big white guy...anuar (wawa) stand near the longkang wanna light ciggarette...the other 3 act as tho, wawa wanna jump down...hahahaha...cute...n funny

we all i mean all 5 of us.... me eqa nini adeq n farrah been over using the word keliru, then came the word cedera.... n i came wif another word, Gemilang!!! it will always be tis, alamak aku keliru sia.... cedera sio fikiran... n ending will be, word Gemilang siak...

today, i had misunderstanding wif adeq n farrah, settle it wif farrah aft exam, wen we go for smoking break.... yes im still smoking fyi....been 2 weeks already...

then adeq was like pissed off we let her wait mcm org bodoh kt b blok level 1... i tried hard to cover but she was so pissed off farrah let it out... but i told her...its my own satisfaction... hmmmm adeq cried, i feel so bad... but i clear all airs wif adeq n farrah abt the frenship...it was abt 15 mins talk la, but chill.... damn i saw mickey which copy cut paste look like dome.... argh cair si!!

eqa went back early since she not feeling welll..... missing her so much!!! im feeling u baby..tmr tk meet, mish2 muackz2!!

well aft tat i spend my day wif farrah 2 hours date at kfc, mcm crazy!!! we talk alot....catching up back the lost time..

since morning i was hung up abt siti nurhaliza goin to grammy tat i ajak farrah go golden globes!

hahahahaha

adeq n eqa plan to go pesta perdana!!! hahahahahaha

i telling u... i muz be some1 famous coz i saw my close fren ex bf nyer current gf....her name disclose... is acting in hmmmm tis new movie la... alamak, i didnt believe wen wawa msg me, serious i saw her face to face which i think hmmmm ok typical minah look...n she an actress....wa liau... who can tahan sia..

here are the pics of me wif my closet lesbian and my personal nurse!....juz got noting to do...on sat nite....actually i was sick, vomit twice tat day.... have 2 personal nurse pun mcm tk guna...hahahah

here are the pics of wat happening in school!!! cool rite...