whose that guy...

nobody at the moment...

im kinda down now...
mentally, emotionally n physically tired!!!
full moon also blame himself coz he cant see me like this...he said this will not happen if he dun give me the consent..

i think at the moment..he the only person i need most...
somebody that can go shopping wif me without worrying that i gonna make him bankrupt..( ya only him)

last nite i went to sleep aft reading the book abt schumacher..i read the book thousand of time...
i know the story, but still i read it coz i juz wanna forget abt everything...

gosh i miss him like crazy..
i still feel the last hug i got..
its so different...
the kisses on my forehead..he knows i love wen he does that..
but its juz so different..

i asked full moon if i can go somewhere but he pays for everything, he ans ya..but i muz promise him that i will be back normal...
beside this, i also keep thinking abt my grandpa n school...alot of things happening in sch...
but no promises... i hate promises!!! i hate alot of things now!!!

random facts abt me

1. im very spoilt..
2. not alot of ppl understand me...
3. i prefer to run away n come back as tho nothing has happened..
4. its hard for me to hate the person i love...
5. i need a very long time to forget this..
6. its hard for me to pretend.. but im trying...

i found something from some1 blog..
maybe becoz wen we close to that some1 we tend to side that person..
but lucky for me, full moon teach me alot.
sometimes i can hide things till its hard for u guys to realise..
but hey if u side that person? why do u hav to listen to 1 side of story..do u ever thot that, he/she might not tell u the whole story? he/she might juz leave out the important details??

thats why wen i facing someting i only share to 1 or 2 ppl..
coz i dun wish to tell the whole story...
at to that few ppl i told them my problem, they know the whole story including the important details..so chic, stop it...i know u are so close to that person...

The sunshine girl is sleeping

She falls and dreams alone

And me I am her dagger

To numb to feel her pain

The world is full of noise yeah

I hear it all the time

And me I am your dagger

You know I am your world

(you know i am your wound)

I thought I heard you whisper

It happens all the time

I thought I heard you whisper

It happens all the time

She whispers while I'm sleeping

I love you when you smile

I didn't really lose you

I just lost it for a while

The world is full of noise yeah

I hear it all the time

You know I am your dagger

You know I am your wound

I thought I heard you whisper

It happens all the time

I thought I heard you whisper

It happens all the time


song above is my current fav...
today is to personal to share...
i dun wan anybody to know...
its something i will keep n will not forget...

donut factory...

donuts any1... hahahaha..yummy!!!!!

my 2 weeks old shoes... i love it...



ok i miss my full moon...

oh ya i keep bumping to somebody that, juz now wen i took an 2hrs nap i had nightmare abt that somebody... n wen i woke up, i cant stand up....
serious... i dunno why...
pls god....
not that somebody....

im so full....
hahaha... n tired...
oh ya somebody ask me for a date...
haha funny, he didnt let me go n take the cab n meet me outside sch...

its hard right now for me...
i dunno why im addicted to songs like

MONUMENT - ROBIN GUTHRIE
AND
DAGGER - SLOWDIVE

its like suddenly gave me that peacefull mind..

n serious... i really felt better listening to those songs...

wow i found something hurtful... but hey...

i know wats next for me...

coz of his lovely msges... i think its juz pure useless for me, so best way is to delete him from my life...

i was lucky few ppl ard me gave me support n love..
full moon n brother..

my family.. frens..

gosh..

am i giving award speech...

but watever is...

i love my life now...

only lack of sleep...

i slept at 5 plus..its really making me sleepy...
beside im getting gastric pain...

i didnt eat at all..

start out wif the study outing..

me ninie n mashas...

plan to meet at 3, but postpone to 5...

i reached first..then mashas n her fren..bad...

ninie came close to 7...

i left starbucks close to 10pm...
tell u...its giving me alot of stress

BUT

Chilling sessions juz happening...

we had alot of fun...

those stupid lame jokes wak gave us...

and its juz crazy wen i was pampered by all of them...

thanks fariq n abg firdaus...

never felt this close before...

maybe i shud spend more time wif u all...

tmr also ok...
fariz might go home tmr...

so i wanna meet him...

damn i miss him...

oh yes...smoke alot today...

thanks to my sweet frens aka cousins...

by providing me those cigarettes...

and make me run all the way to the hot guy outside of 7 eleven for lighter at 1.30am..

i was like, omg... please la... wen he smile at me, i was like...im melting..

to wawa... yes i smoke alot lately...

its juz im too stress!!!

exam round the corner.. or ok, to be exact... this thursday, n i dun wanna to let anybody down wif my poor result..

ok i didnt get any bad result lately its all A...but i worry this time round...

no!!! i cant fail!!!

ok my family.. yes i caught ppl cheating and all... its juz making me more stress...

n ok, another thing... i got to deal wif heart break... someting that even full moon can bet, i cant handle it properly..

but im trying.. to be strong...

now a days alot of nice songs...

from ahli fikir, 2x5

Phlowtron ft VE- Adikku pandai menari..

man im finding for phlowtron song...

and of coz dina- malu tapi mahu...

ok guys... i juz reached home around 330am...AGAIN!!
tmr... erm.. later i mean im going to chill again...

so ya wanna sleep...

this is crazy for me...

seriously, im lacking of time...

okk last nite i chilled till 3am, i guess i fall asleep abt 340am...

this is serious crazy!!

im lacking of sleep...

tonite again we gonna chill again...

i been smoking alot...

another crazy thing..

ok i recieve msg from ninie..

i got to go meet them and study, then i will leave for my chilling session...

ok la... im more into slacking rite now...

last nite, he scolded me...

well he use all the vulgar language u guys can think off...

u can see his frenster n myspace, ya he change the featured frens n all..

while mine i still put him in there... but nvm...

he asked for official break up last nite..

first i was so sick...

i really hav no mood to like contact anybody since he said he wanna sleep...

ok...

he msged farrah...

Farrah sent 7/19/2007 10:12 PM:
dnt he say nt to tell u
Farrah sent 7/19/2007 10:12 PM:
he ask me u say is over and official and i wanna reply saying that
Farrah sent 7/19/2007 10:13 PM:
ur my bestie and all but ur hurt and u said a break nt official and ur hurting then i ask him try to think how she feels

but i was already offline after farrah called me to tell me abt he msging farrah...

so i called him...

n he asked for official break.. i felt like a doll...

i have no idea wat next...

full moon where are u...
i need u....

stupid la this fever... cant u juz leave me alone!!!

i hate to fever, cough, phlegm,flu n running nose..

i smile not becoz im happy..
i laugh not becoz im happy..
im juz trying to pretend im alrite..
im trying so hard rite now...

pls wish me all the best...

its hard...

Kasih hilang tiada bicara

Setelah cintaku kau puja

Rintihan rindu terus melanda

Redup cahaya, hati lara

Bisiklah kiranya aku bersalah

Sedetik tersirat rasa

Kau cipta kasih yang kumiliki

Cinta ku jujur selama ini

Carilah aku dalam hatimu

Sayang sebutlah kau rindu
Hanya pintaku

Kasihmu kekal setia

Usah biarku, terus terluka

Mesra suaramu, kini berbeza

Gagal sembunyi sedih

Kenangan lalu menusuk jiwa

Manis seindah berganti pedih

Pabila bersamamu

debaran Darah arus mengalir,

cinta, Lahir selamanya

Berilah, kucupan sayang

Biar terulir wajah, kasih tercipta …

HOT topic of the day!!
I TALK TO SYARIF LA!!!
OMG HIS VOICE MAKES ME CAIR..

i was like stuck there... nasib my hp tk jatuh...
i swear.. i was like..omg...syarif talk to me..

nie nasib syarif..imagine, amer ke...mati, corinna pengsan....

im havin fever flu n cough..i cant stop sneezing!!

god bless me...

not blast ok...

i got perfume n my victoria secrets body spray..
finally...
i also got my yummy donuts..

they are pure heaven la eh...

ok im sick yet i eat donuts..

today...but dinner i had bubur ayam...

ok i wanna sleep..

am i ok??

god knows...

oh ya... full moon became my mangsa...
i always disturb him wen he super busy... gangguan... opss

ok wen he sleep he still busy...thinking abt tmr meeting..

kiqa came out wif the mangsa gangguan...

wawa call him bulan mengambang....

his tummy is one bulan mengambang...wakakakaka....

i deleted few no in my hp...

full moon say it seems as tho im seeking for attention...

but he knows im not...

so i deleted...


n he also tell me not to msg, coz some of his frens forward him wat i msged them...

sorry guys...

we're still frens...

for now i need time...

Di Mana di Kau sayang..

Pergi jauh terus menghilang..

Ke mana kah aku kan beralih arah

Tiada tertahan asmara..

Mengapa dikau pergi dahulu

Mengapa aku sedih pilu..

Hanya lah untuk mu

Sebuah melodi kasih

Impian dibina telah musnah...

menikam ku bagai...

Aku rindu belaian mu...

Kasih sayang ku hanya untuk mu..


i got this from his msn..personal msg..
i just love my syg too much i can't bear to leave her.. BUT

he left me...

few who know me, msg me if im ok...

sorry if i dun reply..

i havent hav enuff sleep..

well i didnt sleep at all...

even tho the pills suppose to make me go to sleep

but its not working on me...

i wish, i cud run far away..far far far away...

is it possible...

random...

yesterday azan's bday...

today cat's and mal's bday...

i miss u la mal!!

happy birthday...

im bored...

today ca!!

hmmm..

i dunno...

i hope i did welll....

i miss all my frens...

i miss full moon to the core!!!

serious shit... i miss him....

waaaa...

i do miss my boyfie...

but still i miss full moon...

boyfie n full moon 2 diff ppl ok...hehe...

tmr i got hmmmm, NE excursion...

aiyo....

boring nya....

go parliment hse...

hav no idea why?? i went there before...

oh pls...

i wanna sleep...

waaa!!!!

sleepy!!!

guten nacht...

tcshuss...

ich liebe dich... for boyfie and all my frens...

thanks jin (boyfie fren) for getting for me fabolous cats album...

thank u so much!!!

oh yes... guess wat...

dina video clip is out...

yes the song MALU TAPI MAHU..

i love the song...

the video clip...

got alif(oiam), altimet,fabolous cats, a few more...got dina manager..abie...

guess what...

the dancers...

still the same...

aiyo... ffc kaya la mcm gini...

hahaha...

alie looks the same, boojae...he gain weight!! oh no...

bone... hahakz.. he still as chubby like i last saw him.. n i miss him, love wen he talk n hug me...

ok...

today sch..

mashas, ninie n eqa...they called me hitler sister..ok

wat if i really am?? hahaha...

today nothing much...

juz that i miss my frens so much...

im bored...

i reach home, in bus feel like vomitting...

maybe im sick of buses!!!

hahaha..

reach home, i straight go to the toilet...

i vomitted..

bathe n all, straight i fall asleep for 1 solid hour..

but my mum woke me up...

still having slight migraine..but chill tmr i wake up at 8am...

going sleep soon...

tschuss...

hallo...

today i plan to watch transfomers but... the queue so long, n tickets not available till 11pm...

so i decided not to watch...

chill wif my boyfie n his 2 crazy frens... jid n fiky...

till 10pm... n jid went back wif boyfie mp3...aiyo..stress ok!!

earlier on, i was early...

yes!!

i reached aljunied mrt at 1.30pm sharp...all of them late...only me n rama early...waited for them abt 30mins

ya..boyfie recording a song wif rama(triple noize), blast, zul n of coz jid..

fiky juz come n accompany jid...at last.. i got a fren to talk too while they all recording...

i became the camerawoman...

they even jam aft the recording...

tell u...

the song is DA BOMB!!!

ok before all that happen...

last night...

boyfie was really in bad mood...

he was really pushing me to the edge of giving up...

ya n me to...

i was pressuring him...

till morning wen i juz woke up..

ok he called me to wake me up...

n then start again wat abt everything...

its juz to stressful...

dear im sorry...

its abt us...

wat the others wanna say..

let them be...

coz its our relationship...

not theirs..

all i want is both of us to be happy...

n im happy that u are here with me...

AND!!

TO THE SLUT WHO TRIED TO DESTROY ME!!

HEY BITCH..

WANNA KNOW SOMETHING..

U JUZ NOT MY TYPE..

U SLUT!!

DUN U EVER COME NEAR US N SAY SOMETHING WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE..

U ARE SO PLAIN LUCKY COZ I DIDNT GIVE U A NICE BITCH SLAP JUZ NOW..

BUT IF THIS 28 JULY, I SAW U AGAIN...

BEWARE!! TRUST ME...

I HAVE MY RUBBER GLOVE READY IN MY HANDBAG!

COZ I DUN WANNA DIRTY MY HAND WEN SLAPPING U...

LASTLY, A SLUT LIKE U SHUD BE MY SLAVE FOR FREE...COZ UR FACE LOOK LIKE A BERUS JAMBAN!!!

sorry syg...

i was so stress juz now...

im so so sorry to juz jump to conclusion without listening to ur explanation n lynn...

below is something for u...

i really love u...

ich liebe dich..

i know lately we been very stress n tired...

i promise i will try to find more time for u...

now, i wanna sleep...

i hope we forget abt wat happened last nite...

guten nacht!
tschuss
enjoy it syg...

its for u...

muackz2!!

seandainya kau ada disini dengan ku

mungkin ku tak sendiri

bayanganmu yang selalu menemani ku

hiasi malam sepi ku

kuingin bersama dirimu

ku tak akan pernah berpaling darimu

walau kini kau jauh dariku

kan slalu kunanti karena ku sayang kamu

hati ini selalu memangil nama mu

dengarlah melatikuku

berjanji hanyalah untukmu cintaku

takkan pernah ada yang lain

adakah rindu di hatimu seperti rindu yang ku rasa
sanggupkah ku terus terlena tanpamu disisi ku
ku kan slalu menantimu

wat!! the hack... live earth is at hamburg...

damn i miss hamburg..

i shud watch it there..hahaha

ok kidding..

i going to miss my boyfie like hell if i stayed longer.

trust me...

HALLO!!!!

FIRST OF ALL IM BACK!!!

HEHEHE...

i miss germany n paris...the shopping, the food, the places, the fun....btw i turn to a very good girl wen im at europe... hahahaha....

mummy wanna go europe again next year...

so pls mum, bring me along...this time, dad muz follow....so he can carry all the hand luggage..

muz go summer time....evn tho its summer...the weather....so damn freaking sejuk!!!10-19 degree celcius...

but i love the cherries, berries, all la....we evn go to cherry fest....all abt cherries...

mum n me ended up, plucking cherries n eat... n we stand for abt 2 hrs doing that...hahahaha...

i miss my uncles and aunties....
i MISS SUSU!!
I MISS LISEL!!!
wonder who susu is?? susu is the navigator that bring me anywhere around hamburg... susu has a sister name SUSAN, but currently susan is sick...
liesel, is the car... its actually a jaguar... but we call it liesel.... coz it a diesel car....

today...went out, watch surf up wif my dear boyfie...

best giler!!!

hehehehe...

ok, he watch 2 movies without me... f4 n transfomer..n he knows i been wanting to watch all that...haiz...

so juz now we meet n i juz wan to watch any movie...

so i choose surf up....

i still havin those stupid jet lag.... all i wan is sleep...summore im havin fever.. lucky to hav a paramedic/medic boyfie... but irritating part wen i hav to eat medicine...i hate those pills!!!

its sucks!!!!

nothing to blog abt actually...life seems back to normal...

i miss all my girlsfrens...

all my frens....

i miss my girlfrens in da fam...gfs of da fam ppl...

and the list never ends....

1 of my fish is dead....

haiz...

i got full moon latest pic...fuh, man in black all 5 of them...all 5 make me cair ok..

like il divo...wakakaka...

opsss....
no worry i show my boyfie already the pic....

*evil laugh*

we evn hav those stupid joke aka arguments abt he famous and all....

rite SYG, if u think that way, baik i ambik full moon kn??

wakakaka...

tshuss