tuesday i actually replied to that girl msg, this
hi.. 1st, thanks for the compliment ya..erm.. i cnt answer tt qn..btw, who r u?? are u by any way related to D*#% ?? well, i dun think he's a playa lah..i just knew him..

i called doctor, he didnt anwers...
3 days i go on crying like a crazy woman, wondering wat she gonna reply
yesterday went out wif my girls n 1 guy, one of them hafizah took out her laptop n we surf myspace wireless.. i check my myspace, the girl reply 2 msg! the first one is this

i know he's not a playa... me??i know him but.... sorie to ask.. do u like him?? if yes!!lucky him to have a nice n preety gurl like ya... nice knowing u anyway.... (she sent on tuesday at 5.12pm)
the second one she send

xcually he is my bf.... but afta i c ur page in his page... d new one i mean.... i get mad.... so i asked him.... he said he wanted u to do sumthin to d new page... but i cant accept juz dat even i trusted him like hell... i love him more den u can think of...but i cant say anything for now...things bcome worst...untill now!! im not mad u or anythin....being u 4 sure u can get any1 u wan....but me....i only got him but at d same time im losing him.. he said i always chatin wif guys in myspace....n now as u can c my account will closed... i love him sorie to disturb u..... (thursday 12.25pm)

so i cried in the middle of orchard road when all my frens goin crazy wif the laughing gas. i start smoking back..well i called him, he told me no he tk tahu apa2, he denied! why?
i left wif farrah, in the cab i was crying all the way..why he did this to me? i didnt do anything wrong, watever he said i follow, why doctor u do this to me, i told fahmi, he help alot, farrah,souher,wawa,fin,mai,marshahs,farid,fiza,fahmi,bone i really love u guys, thanks for everything i really appreciate it.. i actually reply back to the girl this..

Hi, thanks for the info. Only today I manage to reply coz when I read it last night I broke down and I cant even think about it.

Truthfully last night I was shock when I read the msg you sent, I was with my frens and decided to check my myspace using my fren laptop, I left my frens after reading your msg and called dome, all I could say, he denied about it, I gave up, I admit I like him, but I dont know who to believe and I cant be selfish, if its true hes yours, I have to back off since he belongs to you! But if hes not yours, I guess there are a lot better guys out there that deserve my love. I mean sometimes you cant have the guy you love. Am I right?

So im trying to accept the fact. He lied to me and hurt me badly. But what am I suppose to do besides moving on in life.

Can I ask you a few questions? Are you older than him? And are you the girl that is working in a tv station? And are you sure you guys still together? Coz he told me, he just broke up 3 months ago. So how can you make me believe you guys are still together. He denied and you told me you guys are together. So who am I suppose to believe?

I dont care what gonna happen now coz after I hear few things about him from sources I can trust, it makes me think hes a player! At first he gave me a good impression about himself, now I guess hes like a jerk! Im sorry if it hurt you, but thats what I think. It hurt me too calling the guy I love a jerk.

Thanks for the compliment. Well yes its true I can get whoever I want but im not that kind of girls, now I just regret after knowing the truth, it kinda stupid for me to trust him, no worry the sources I got from, its not the guys in his dance crew, well I admit I can ask them about him, but I dont want to make myself look like an idiot.

Now I still have doubts whether to believe you or not coz I dont know who you are or how you look like, maybe there are some things you hide from me, coz someone told me that maybe dome himself can msg me using an anonymous account. Dont you think its possible? I think so.

Ok whatever is now, all I want you to do is show me the real you and all I can say is, if you are really his girl, take good care of him, and make sure this is the last time he do this coz he might do it again, so dont get yourself hurt coz im badly hurt now, but no worry, I cancel my plan to go back KL to meet him tmr.

I hope you answer my questions and tell me everything, and I hope you open up all with me about everything. No worry, I already throw the feelings away, so there is no need for you think if I gonna steal him away from you, coz he will never be mine.

Take care may god bless you, im hoping for a reply.

why is he giving me to much pain! i gave him love, he gave me pain!!
all i want now is to ask him, why he did this to me??
he post bulletin at myspace telling everybody he hates his life!! i hate him worst! i put his name in my hp as I HATE HIM!!
but do i really hate him or i still love him, like bone said, go find some 24 hours scandals!! hahahaha!! thanks bone..but he told me to tell them where they stand so i wont hurt them..hahahaha..he make my day!! thanks mr booney!! ok la got to go, break fast now!

SUNDAY
it started out damn bad, serious, wif the fights i had, few frens bustard me...and most crazy one is that i so confused abt love!!
i went to esplanade, dunno who follow me..
reached there i saw alie n bone, so we decided break fast together...
alie stay wif me n bone went to marina square..
we went to this shop to get sandwiches.. both our hp rang at the same time, same song..cool..
hmmm..duduk lepak, ask alot of stuff..n thanks to me, i remind him abt his tag no, all me...
can be manager...but he so nervous that i myself really panic n nervous..
wen he practice his dance move, bone n i talk alot..
hehehe..
wen the dance comp start, i was super nervous..holding alie's hp, n his hp cant stop ringing..
i juz offline, n record alie dance, superb!! i put my money on alie to go to finals..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vrJaMG5J00
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M2b5SA1zK4w

then i pass alie back his hp, n talk to him, time break i wif bone talk, n he told me he gonna dance part lagu caramu..i was like what!! yeah!! so i went back to this place, i stand wen alie perform n record bone dancing..cute..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkWzA2EuUaY
i dunno wat to say coz its so fun, so crazy n enjoying...my doctor also realise that..
doctor i love u!!
wen they annouce the finalist, alie was the first..bone n i shout like we are crazy ppl on the lose..hahaha
but alie abit worry coz he hav to come on 10 oct n stay in spore all alone..so he need my help
i dun mind... i will help him, so we exchange no..wif bone 2..
in the taxi they are so crazy.. alie n bone ckp, alie kena ambik gambar wade robson byk2, wade robson masuk toilet korek hidung semua kena record n ambik gambar.. hahaha nuts..
stop them at golden mile towers n ya we hug n say goodbye before i continue journey home..

yesterday nothing to talk abt.. doctor no claz..i at home, tired..

today i log in myspace i receive a msg.. frm this girl..

hye sweety.... damn hot to b honest wif.... n dear....dont b scared!!im not a lesbo or anythin... hihihi... xcually i nak tanyer sumthin...juz wondering....is **** bboy ur bf?? n again plz dont think im crazy....i xcually kinda like him but wat i know he's not a playa n even hard to talk wif... so b4 anythin beter i tanyer u 1st,u kan 1st person dalam top 8.even ur's!!

she sound so jealous, i msg doctor..doctor will settle abt this girl..i duno wats up..dun wanna masuk campur..
but im abit jealous 2..hmmm tah la..will ask doctor..
wen i check doctor myspace, tat girl didnt msg doctor...
hmm tis always happen wen the guys are famous..
speak frm experience...hahaha

here are the pics for last friday

hi im back,
thursday nite, i abit sad coz didnt had the chance to talk to doctor..
i hav this feeling he mad at me or something,
yesterday..went out wif farrah, souher, fin, marshahs n mai..
then in the toilet i try to call my doctor..he finally ans
he told me yesterday his phone something wrong..
hmm settle...we went to walk ard..bought a tube..at last
got myself 3 minature perfumes..
hmmm then we went to arab street n smoke shisha..
crazy rite...hmm we took hell lot of pics, but fin havent upload to her multiply so ok la..
once she update i will post here.
went home i talk to doctor..hmm he kind la tired but yes, we start wif the normal things we always chat abt...
i told him, once i finish mandi i call him, guess wat..he fall aslp..hahaha...i know he kinda tired..
then i watch in the womb (national geographic)...serious i freak out..abt the labour..argh..it shows real pics of the lady giving birth..how the baby came out..the first thing i think was, am i going to have babies when im married??
i cant evn think abt it..the image is still in my mind...

today i get up, i call doctor...he went out to send his car for service...
then i went online, he ask me to signup for him this myspace music...i did
then he went out send stuff to his sister..then he online...but he not online on myspace..he online on ym but he didnt reply my msges n call..y??
confuse...

tmr, overdrive semi finals..not sure mohd nor following or not..haiz

doctor and my fav song

O by OMARION

O...Let me tell you girl
Oh...hey here I go, here I go
I know you heard me say it
Time and time again
That they would rock your world
And change your life
But I can’t blame them
Cause you make a nigga wanna get involved
Wanna get the drawers
Well I’m gone put my bid in
And get at you
No disrespect but I want it bad as they do
The only difference is they look out for themselves
But I’m doin’ it just to hear you yell..yeah
[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...

In the night You sayin’ O...
Means I was hittin it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...
Girl come on over and
Let’s get this thing crackin’
You’ll be surprised when
You see what O’s I’m packin’
Cause I’m young but I’m ready
Trynna get hot and heavy
Turn you out if you let me
yeah, yeah
Girl I’m gone take you
Somewhere that never been
Show you some things that
Make you wanna show your friends
Have you so weak that you
Can’t even say a thing
But that’s okay all you gotta say
[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...
In the night You sayin’ O...
Means I was in it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...

O is for that overtime I’m puttin’ in
We’ll go for hours take a break
And go at in again
Girl I work my way from A
All the way to Z
But trust me baby girl
O is where you wanna be
Couldn’t believe me when I tell you
I’m not trynna tell you what to do
Cause when it’s said and done
The choice ain’t mine it’s really up to you
Just say yes don’t fix your mouth
To tell me no drop that bottom
Jaw for me and just say O...
[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...
In the night You sayin’ O...
Means I was in it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...
Let me hear you say
O, when I’m hittin’ it
Let me hear you say
O, when I’m gettin’ it Ohh...
Let me hear you say
O, when you come see O
Let me hear you say
O, when you come from the back to the front
Now somebody say my name
Let me hear you say
O, when the sun goin’ down
Let me hear you say

O, when you can’t make another sound

Now scream
Baby girl let me hear me scream Oh...
Baby girl let me hear me scream Oh...

HELLO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAHMI AND HELMI (MIMI)

hmmm today its like im so hyper..
i dunno why..
fahmi been very understanding and loving lately... i know he having a serious problem..anyway its his birthday... so happy birthday dear...muackz!!

doctor juz wake up, i disturb him online, hahaha..
recently my fren comment they wanna know who ffc...here are pics of ffc and my doctor

doctor on stage

doin freeze like a monkey

hmmm floor fever crew wif dina!!
i know only five out of 6..hahaha

if i were to choose 1 guy i will go crazy!!

back to my story, tmr me souher and farrah goin out!! goin bugis to get the tickets for overdrive finals.. i damn hungry now, but got to wait for my beloved cousins to come back and then we gonna eat pizza....hmmm to al...banzai!! hahaha...

i miss sum1 now...oh ya its not full moon! im getting over full moon! ya i still save his sms...but now i more concentrating in other stuff...why muz i wait for full moon??
right??

nevermind, i single also still got some1 who love me so much!!! that is farrah faith!! i love her!!!

haiz, i got the result from my doctor, boojae n ffc will not go to the semi finals, kesian kat??
only bone and alie...
bone msg me at myspace, this sunday i will forget abt my spore idol and i will juz support alie and bone at esplanade..hahaha...
nevermind, i been forcing doctor to follow...dunno la...anyway i not sure if mohd nor confirm or not...
nevermind...if nobody follow, ina and all sure go...so i get to meet ferhan n papan...hahaha
n i get to see amer clone again...the one from ite simei!
hahahaha...n now that guy name han keep msging me! argh!

sunday, i went out wif souher and farrah!! yeah!!
talk abt souher ex (wade robson) and abt pencil and stuff..hahaha
hahaha, then we watch overdrive, guess what sheik haikal block our view...argh..
so i decided to stand up, then i saw mohd nor, hahahaha..
souher say he was cute...
wen souher msg me abt him, he read the msg n he was, WhAt!!
hmmm i say its compliment, take it aje..its a bonus ppl say u r cute..
then wen alie dance, i was going crazy, mohd nor juz pretend he didnt know me
then wen i went to back stage, i say hi to the girls, a bone dance, i was wat...i was screaming for a bone.. it was like everybody lookin at me, aft the comments, i shout again..n he look at me, at last he saw me..
then say hi to alie, n went back to mohd nor, he carry my stuff..hahaha..
fundamental fever crew was last, so went they come up on stage i shout for them, mohd nor dares me...so ok i shout out loud for boojae...the dance really cool, but i pity nana, she was sick, so halfway she just walk out..
but i didnt wait for result.. i guess someting not rite..hmmm

now a days i feel happy coz i got a doctor...but he expert in accounting hahaha
today is wawa birthday...happy birthday babe!!!
went i at the bus stop juz now, there this guy asked for my no..his name is han, he stay juz near dover ite, and worst he told me, abt wat his frens compliment east side girl, i was like hmmm i dunno...he and his frens think east side girls are pretty, i was like oh really..but in my heart i think wat u say is true!! hahahaha
ok la i got to go, chatted wif full moon but no reply...i dunno..

opsss..i know last post abit gedik...abt the last part but thats life...my life...hmmm
papa been telling me aft he get N73 of himself he get me a hp, so he say go decide which hp u wan, n73,n80,n93 or wat....hahaha..then he told me abt getting a new car, hmmm suzuki swift sport cool for me, its my style...hahaha...now i juz slackin at nenek hse doin nothin....i read few news abt michael schumacher, i cried.. i love him, i gonna miss him next year...i gonna watch this 3 last race..not gonna miss it...coz its the last 3 race for michael...i wanna meet him!!!!!

i was not ready!!!
depressed!!!
miss farrah and souher did this
all thanks to both of them

back few days back, on wednesday, last paper...hahahaha... cool..
thursday i went out wif my sis n ina, went shopping at fox igot 6 tops n 1 cargo pants for 70 bucks...chill at bedok before goin home..last week i got 3 fox top n a skirt for 71 bucks
my sis was like, adik u spend 141 on fox in 8 days..

yesterday i was super down, n we went to fox i got a mini dress for 9 bucks, n my mum nag at me, i got alot of tops that i havent evn used it..hahaha
watever is above is my pics...hmmm im not in a good mood lately... take cares peeps!! love ya all
before i go, i wanna say tat, to all the ppl i hurt, i really didnt mean it..serious..hope u guys are happy now, and forget abt all the misunderstanding...

yesterday aft sch, i went out wif fir to town...went shopping at fox and fir went to taka and get his stuff..
aft that went home as fir hav to go for his training...
wash up n change, meet farrah and martha..
had dinner, then souher n marshah came marshah is my classmate..
then souher n farrah ask for this topshop guy no for me...
hahaha we chill at starbucks n another 2 came..
i really had fun...
we open up, n i open up abt full moon...hahaha
they ask y i love full moon coz he not hot or handsome..
i told them i go for heart not looks...

today is nine's birthday!! hahaha...
wake up, clean hse now at my nenek hse...haiz...
hmmm i log in ym, full moon msg me kat ym..
hey since when did he dl ym, he didnt told me..
i was shock!! best bangat aft this boleh chat wif him kat ym
hehehehe...ok peeps i gtg
byes...love ya all...

yo wassup, now a days im very confused...
i received a msg from full moon, he told me im special to him...
when i was abt to forget abt him, he gave me surprises...
last nite, i called him, he ask me to campak my hp in the longkang..
byk cantik muka... hahaha..he ask me to get n73.. well i asked him to get for me..haha
we talk for 5mins..ya..its been a month i didnt talk to him.. miss him
he say he been making himself busy lately, thats why he now very very very busy..
crazy kan.. and he asked me to go kl..hmm the rest are personal... hahaha..
but i feel bad, at the same time im getting close wif tis guy in school..
but i still love full moon...muackz!!
ok lah babes, im goin off soon, sorry i been busy lately so i didnt go online n post..
my myspace n frenster pun my lil sis check for me... thanks su...
take care peeps...