Anything you can do, i can do better..
I can do anything better than you..

Anything you can be, I can be greater..
Sooner or later i can be greater than you...

Anything you can wear, I can wear better,
In what you wear, i look better than you..

Anything you can say, I can say faster
I can say anything faster than you..

wonder why i type like this..
watch this video..hahaha..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5C0I7Ef4gQI

ok its abt formula one..
hehehehe...
ok today i watch formula one.. at 12.30pm..
i was like dragging myself out from bed...
and guess what, it raining there.. so for 20 laps safety car convoi... no overtaking.. ferrari from no 3 n 4 was force in to the pits by the race director coz a new rule came out wen they start the race, all cars must be in the full wet tyres.. they start the race with intermediates tyres.. wtf...

twice they went to the pit..stress sia..but guess what.. alot of the accidents and stuff happened... n after i keep singing the song above.. ALONSO accident... me n bro in law was like shouting out loud... hahahahaha....but the fun part only start 15 laps to the end, till the last lap...sial la...giler fun...

btw alonso, i love ur act in the advertisment...
anything you can do, i can do better...
hahahaha...

to him:
maybe u wud not blog abt it anymore... but i will,NO!!! not to continue the fight.. but juz to clear my mind..(i been keeping this for so long, never got the chance to tell anyone)..
n i swear, this is not to make u malu... this is to make everybody out there 2 realise that no one is perfect n nobody is allowed to judge each other...

can i ask u, how sincere are u??
u msg me, wen i was on the way back home...(29/09/07, 1.27am)
u wanna asked for forgiveness.. i said i will call u once im home...
but wen i called u, u didnt ans... why??

back to a month plus ago...
u did the same, but that time u were drunk, calling me, crying...
today..u even msg me, if my family knows, u wud like to apologise to them..(29/09/07, 1.33am)
no, im not making ur waterface drop...

BUT

u put me in a situation that i cant find a way out...
the best way out *i wish im so evil*, i dun wan to even know anything...
i dun wan to even forgive u.. (but, sedangkn nabi maafkn umatnya)
i will never forget every single word that come from u, it hurt me so much that, there are times, i wish i cud juz be so EGO n reply this... who cares... See You in Hell jerk...

but no, i dun wan.. coz im not that kind of person..(u may call me watever u wish, but im not)
i pray to God every night.. let me be strong coz i got alot to think abt, from kl to pasir ris, i have alot of other problems that need my attention.. When im think im alright (even my family n frens think im not) u shock me, with only one msg... but it disturb me (i wonder wat u want)
U remember u msg my lover girl, u will never break the promise u made to urself, u will never contact me... but u did...(wen i deleted ur no from my hp, n wish we wud never meet or contact in million years.. u did)

dear, sometimes i wish, we never exist..
u know why, i thot wen u deleted ur blog, everything will be alright.. *deep down i hav this feeling it will continue*
but wen u went online just now... Full moon log in to my msn... he saw u dedicated ur nick to me..
wen he told me, i dont believe at all.. coz i know, all this while when im defending myself.. im telling the truth.. to ur mum n everybody..
yes i admit i told ur mum, cik saya sayangkan dia.. but your actions makes me hate u so much..
like how i hate alonso(i keep cursing him every moment i see him on tv)...i dun wish to hear, see or have anything related to u *that moment i wish i cud reformat my brain so it will not have even a single sec of memories we shared*.. wish its either u or me die at that time..
but i cant.. coz this is life.. no matter how hard it be.. i have to face it.. n im facing it alone..
expressing what im feeling all this while...

here i list a few questions that i wanna ask u.. but u never answer my call, even tho u the one who msg me first coz u wanna talk to me..

why u keep changing story line (u shud know wat im talking abt)
do i look like a guy? (if yes why u choose me at the first place)
am i sherk?? (i thot at the end of the day, he still mr nice guy)
ape dosa i, till u make me suffer like this??
why u keep breaking ur promises (i hope n pray u will mark ur words, its for ur own good)
why u keep bringing other ppl in to settle ur problem??

answer me.. i want the truth..only the truth...
after that, we have our own life to carry on with...(not bossy or wat.. i just wan to focus on family)


GUYS, im not dissing him or wat.. im juz letting out everything.. after this, i want a life without all this problem.. dont get the wrong info wen u read this post.. seriously.. im really exhausted..
all i want to do is to eat my painkillers n sleeping pills n go to sleep..
im tired with all this.. one word, REGRET!!
but its all fate... i cant run away from it or blame god.. coz all this will make us even more wise n mature, so we wont make the same mistake all over again... after this, let us start a new chapter..
n u guys are allowed to judge...but keep it to urself...
i will make my decision if im going to forgive him or anything.. but i will tell him after he answer all the questions above...

im sorry is anybody felt hurt by this post or previous posts...
and to him, im really sorry.. after this, chatper end... to me, we never exist..

lalalalala
moody as always...
going out wif my gfs...
at night, another lepak session...
god...im freaking tired...woke up early, took a cab to granny hse..
n found grandpa didnt go for friday prayers...
argh..before i left, i had a fight wif my dad..(seems forever)
but as early as 8.30 frens woke me up...argh...
sis also called me abt the kl issue...

tonight during the lepak session i gonna find out more info abt the issue...
i rather waste the money on something else than that slut taking it...*wondering how much she took..if few thousands its alrite*
not worth it... im sure out there, i can find better executive than her..

oh ya... this post > to whom it may concern.. no finger pointing..

let me make myself clear...
yes, maybe wen i was on the phone, i confess i still...
but now no longer...
coz i have a few better choice...
bmw or ferrari??
ferrari is my choice.. its full moon..


read jfk blog, he wif ashraf n astro team are now shooting a documentary in Swiss..
argh... i wanna go Swiss!! gosh im craving for marche...hahaha...
wonder how my life without full moon aft raya.. he's going london... n jof going aussie on the 14 oct... haiz... it seems everybody taking a break from life.. hmmm wait full moon hav a meeting in london..he's not there for holiday.. ok... jof... get for me koala..hahaha.. n dolphin!! life size!!hahaha

seriously, im dead tired today..
but when parents asked me if i wanna follow them to godma's hse..
i said yes..
coz i miss the two of them...without them last night, i dun think i cud sleep....
so wanna chat with them..
and...
guess what...

company in kl is now in chaos..
bloody bitch trying to control the company...
so wats next?? steal ppl husband...
bloody hell... first u force my Aunt to throw all the good workers.. (so wat, u can call all ur stupid family members to work in that company)
MUTHAFUCKER OLD MAID..

while we lepakking at godma's hse...dad hp cant stop ringing...worst than a hotline phone..

here a info for u... enjoy ur days in the company for like another 5 more days...
enjoy n spend the company money as u wish... so how much did u spent all this while??
1 million or maybe 2?? fuck.. not enuff wif the condo that we gave u...
i still remember, u use that line, oh cik jan, let hanis follow me go shopping.. i will get her watever she wants, bloody hell, u spent at guess kids for ur nieces and nephew using the company credit card!!

they are not bloody related to the company..

well old maid... u only got 5 more days before my dad arrive.. (at the moment he's busy wif my granny)
aft that, balik kampung papa kedana...

venting my anger again, coz of this stupid bloody old maid...my best guy fren in that company now working in Texas sdn bhd as coordinator.. wen he bloody hell earn more than 4k wen he work for us...

i heard all this nonsense for so long, only now it gone beyond control.. they come n ask help from mummy n daddy..is that a sign im getting back wat i use to have.. hopefully..

this happens a couple of times..
am i suppose to blame malays that try to get the fast way to be rich?? or wat??
i see in frenship its also the same...family n this is worst.. business...
now its hard for me to believe ppl ard me.. yes..grew up wif this company, seeing all the backstab, it sucks...
2 yrs ago, i lost my life coz backstabbers in family...
and frenship, its hard for me to have true frens..
beside fullmoon and ya my close gfs....farrah, wawa,qurra,ninie,suhana...

now its back to business... crazy or wat for my parents to keep quiet n see part of hardwork destroyed by a slut... hell no...

hope this end fast... n hope life get even better aft this....hopefully daddy bring me along....
mish kl so much...

full moon asked me to edit this..
he say i sound so rude...
but i will not edit..
i will juz say sorry to the person in this post oh yes...this is for u... im over u..trust me.. n stop asking ur girl to serang/call me.. wakakakaka..
coz i dun believe...thats why i hang up...she's panting (as tho she juz had a climax) n sound nervous.. hahaha, u think i care who's next... i had u first...wow!! n im happy.. i taste u first!! she got the left over!! n i teach u a lot wif my fuck up attitude rite.. so hav fun wif ur so called nervous gf...
evn full moons thinks u are a loser...start a relationship wif lies.. wat??? u got flings and all before u had me.. but real fact u are juz a virgin...
good oscar actor!!!
it shows that im better than u!!
i dun need another oscar actor...
i juz need a sincere n better guy..
n
i love money!! show me the money..
if not..juz shut up!!
oh ya, u shud know...i have a few better guys out there...only im taking my own sweet time to choose...hahahaha...
yes i admit, IM BOSSY,SPOILT,MATERIALISTIC,MANJA N DIFFERENT..
That Nur Hanis Insyirah/Corinna Insyirah!!!




i know some of my frens blog abt this too... they blame me 2.. but thanks guys for the support.. im blogging this for the last time.. let me defend myself..
congrats to him, for hurting me..
letting me cry in frustration at nite..

ok, the story starts from 8 sept..
he called me, to settle..we talk alot.. n he open up..
first he confess he still a virgin when he first met me.. so ya.. im not shock coz i know what on..
so wen i told my sis he's a virgin, he scolded me..coz he thinks he wud look like a virgin loser.. before our relationship start... he actually told me he slept wif 2 girls before... then aft it ended he confess, no he was a virgin, the story he slept wif 2 girls is juz lies!!..
now he said its like my fault to believe him he's a virgin..
so what next...dont keep changing story line, we all confuse..

he said i send him composition sms??
my sms are short, less than 1 page.. n i send him twice, *check my hp log* but he said i send him million of times... (thank god i got a good hp log up till 30 days)

BUT

wonder why his fren did blog abt me 2..
he open up to me, on the 8 of sept 2007... thats wen he open up everything.. he juz put up an act in front of her (the fren that blog abt me)..
he dont like her at all.. its like he being force to do so... coz frens.. so he hav to act..

to his fren, please stop it.. let be sincere wif u, he's just putting up an act in front of u...he dont respect u at all coz of ur other half..till today..
oh ya, u told me i have no right to judge me, few days aft u lend my hp, he open up to me, telling me, u did bitch abt me with him... and wen u said i assume..i didnt... coz i know everything.. u told me i hav no right to judge u...but wait.. who judge who first?? i didnt judge u.. even tho i heard alot of things abt u.. i didnt judge u coz to me, everybody have his/her bad points..

im amused by the way u act so innocent..ur fren n my best fren even saw the condition of the hp wen i pass to ur fren..it still brand new (out from the box)...but u dun even wan to admit that u use it till there's line on the screen...god even tho its a cheap hp, its from my grandpa!! goddamnit!! if its my n73, or my 6110 navigator..look at the condition.. *proudly show* theres all kind of lines on screen n hp body, paints scratches.. even tho its less than 2 weeks!!!

i called him last nite.. to stop all this..if not i wud call his mum..
but he dare me to call his mum... when u dare me, i wud do.. nothing stop me.. (bossy)
i called his mum at 1217am for 10 mins n 3 secs.. *check hp log*
ur mum told me u are beyond control...

he also said i pass his no ard for prank calls.. did i??
all this while, its me trying to settle everything... prank calls??
he passed my no ard, a small girl to called me...
thank god now im using another no, private no..

a tag abt WHERE THE FLYING FUCK IS MY DIGNITY?
First, I blog that way coz, he acted as tho I took his virginity away.. so I got really pissed off.. so I do that.. I still have it..
let me tell u the truth..everybody have this need for pleasure.. its either u wanna tell ur frens n family or juz keep it to urself..
my frens n sis know abt it... if im horny or wat... if I have a bf I wud tell him 2..
btw i dun need a dildo... for now i have no mood for that pleasure...
coz im cars are better than dildo... from ferrari to benz n bmw.. thats my toys..
so i dun see a need for me to have a dildo..its not my toys at all.. i wud rather marry a ferrari or slr maclaren than guys.. i dun really need sex.. 2 yrs without it.. i survived...
me blogging abt this. i know its 2 much.. but defending myself..i have to open up everything..same in court..(thanks to my undergrad law fren)

only now, the judge are those who read it...

to the judges out there, I didn’t mention names.. I didn’t change his link in my previous blog.. Don’t u think what he did is totally beyond limit..
well I didn’t diss him… coz I didn’t mention his name..
(siapa makan chili dia yg terasa pedasnya)
again he break the promise.. he diss me.. coz he mention my name.. his link..
hahaha so that mean he the sore loser??

btw i know u hate me so much coz hate ur ‘problem’ and i used to care abt ur 'problem' i did help u wif the 'problem', wif my help, it did go away a bit...
i hope u will carry on using it, so ya ur 'problem' will go away.. so called me a man, sherk or watever. everything is original abt me...from my boobs to my butt.. everything.. me a man??Ok.. thanks for telling me.. FULL MOON!! Can I go for plastic surgery..
call me horny loser... go ahead... im not.. i didnt sell myself on net or watever...

seriously im tired..u can ask anybody to be ur gf n call me...(again u act n lie)
are u coward or wat??
i dun need..coz i didnt hide or run from anything.. im juz stating real facts, I didn’t change story lines..
u can juz say watever u wan..coz i dun wan to continue this..
i know im partly to be blame.. sorry, but u know i react only after finding out u break the promises n words..

i think its time for me to decide..
n i hav made my decision..(advice frm all my frens n family)
im considering full mood advice 2..
InsyaAllah, one day, i will find the right path..i just have to be strong...

HEY!! its been a year past...since overdrive semi finals and all.. where u saw me supporting ffc every sunday at esplanade...

hahahaha... u saw me n bone jumping like crazy ppl wen haikel announce that alie get thru to the final.. and ....

GUESS WHAT Peeps!!!!

THEY ARE COMING TO SPORE THIS 20 0CT 2007!!!!!

still planning..but im sure they will come..

bone, boojay n alie.. come ok..alie i dun care..

i prefer bone..

wakakakaka... i juz had a short chat wif boojay...

YES BABES!!!!

OMG!!!!

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time?? (msg me for the time)wakakakaka..

finally ms period came aft 1 month delay..

mood swings.. fight wif almost everybody at home..

main person daddy... n jof

in 3 days i read 2 novels...

my body clock change..

burung hantu n csm, company sergeant major my new nickname (jof gave me that name) wth..

our new car hav clock more than 350km, coz i been asking my sis to drive me ard!!

i became jof new alarm clock..got to wake him up for sahur..
I MISS FULL MOON!! LIKE CRAZY...

oh yes, he's online now.. but chat wif him abt his hp...cant wait for daddy n mummy to go there again to meet them...hehe..

yes emily is me..
yes im very sick at the moment and tired...
i only had less than 4 hrs of slp.. woke up, get ready, n my uncle fetch me to hospital.
(Corinna world record, i get ready bathe n all in 30 mins) hahaha..no make on.. thanks to my beloved uncle...
nenek discharge today, aft 20 days in hospital.. so we got to settle alot of things..and that makes me really tired..

i manage to watch rexona no sweat challenge..
floor fever and hips to soul dance moves... damn cool...
btw, ya ffc won... prize RM 30K..
dtg spore tk yah stay at my hse..wakakaka..kidding..

i had a fight with dome 2 days ago..forever fighting abt stupid stuff.. he start it first..

Abt the previous post..u can ask me personally whats wrong with me..
for now.. i prefer to just go thru it..even tho it kills me.. the pain.. n sleepless nites..

Kekasih Gelapku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu

Di saat engkau merindukan diriku

Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu

Waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku

OMG...Hafiz Rashid.u look damn hot it that green baju melayu...

hahahaha... mangga magazine eh...

i didnt know u already work in ur family company as pengarah urusan...

any job for me??

Emily loves spending time with him..
Emily finds comfort in him..
Emily knows he gonna protect her from the dark side (star wars??)..
but Emily hates when he hide things from her..

The story goes...
Emily got out from the car. Emily starts looking for him. But no where to be found.
When she preparing the food for break fast... Emily saw him...
He with a brand new hair style... corn rolls (Emily thinks he look damn funny)...
Emily carried the baby around while waiting for the time to break fast...
He walk toward Emily.. n took the baby away. He stare at Emily... Emily thinks its normal...
(Emily didn’t realise he was actually trying to help Emily) after breaking fast, everything seems normal...

Emily went out with him and the rest...
Emily sat beside him thru out the scrabble game which last more than 5 hours...
Emily played with his hp games... The rest wonder why only Emily was allowed to play with his hp, replies all the sms... Emily doesn’t even allow his ex gf to call him... He dont mind..
Till 1.30am, Emily’s mum came to him n discuss something...
It’s about Emily... he told Emily’s mum, Emily is sick...
They went to the kitchen and discuss... he gave Emily the reason he needs to go to the toilet...
But Emily knew something is not right... Emily waited till he came back beside Emily... n Emily asked for explanation...instead he told Emily... that Emily’s mum will explain...
he acted as if nothing wrong. Emily manages to take his pics..hahahaha...

Emily reached home close to 3am, Emily waited for her parents to explain.. but mummy and daddy just do their own stuff.. She msged him, he still wants Emily to ask her mum.. so Emily asked her mum.. her mum told her that he saw from Emily’s face, Emily is sick. Her face very pale. and Emily is scared with a lot of things. Emily is not the real Emily he used to know..

Now Emily understand, why emily keep seeing weird things around her.. almost everyday. Emily starts to feel pain all over her body..

Emily really appreciate his help.. this is the third time he help Emily..

Emily would like to thank him, but shy..

EMILY is ME!

juz read my frens blog..
all of us swear not to look back include me..
please god show us the right path, coz we want to move forward n never ever look back..even tho we really love him..

now... im sitting in front of my laptop..wishing my past never exist..
the pain, the sleepless night, the frustration..everything.. i just hate it..


It's painful sometimes when you love and miss someone so much..
Someone you dont even know how he/she feels towards you.
Then your mind starts to automatically assume he/she feels that it's just something platonic or just simply.. nothing at all.
But among them all, sometimes what hurts the most..
is when you know what he/she feels for you.

sometimes it's like that.

That's what i usually feel when i was with him back then, but he just dont understand.


Tmr im going there again.
get to meet all of them.
a week ago, you came. i totally ignore you. coz i hate your hair colour. it sucks.
and im sure tmr you gonna get all the remarks from me..

PICS...

study mode!!exams!!

before

in a mess
businessman fav hobby...wakaka Daddy reading the papers
in my room!!!

XRATED PIC!!!! R21!!!!

TODAY!!!
got the new car.. visit granny, watched dvds... wat else... i hav no idea....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAWA!!!!

I LOVE U SO SO VERY MUCH!!!

MUACKZ!!! ONE DAY WE GO OUT OK... SHOPPING!!! I NEED NEW TOPS!! N THAT FREAKING JEANS FROM DP!!!

my hse was totally in a mess over the weekend coz few painters came to paint the whole entire house...

damn tired...
im so freaking happy coz mclaren was penalised for the spy scandal...yedah!! so now ferrari is the constructor champ!!! im a true ferrari tifosi!!!

ok E'one this post for u!!!
my fren from kl likes SLEEQ!!
hahahaha..
he asked me to get for him sleeq album with their signature...

ok, went out to watch movie today... Ratatouille (ratatootee)...hahaha
had fun the whole day...to add wif the fun n laughter i had today...

i got a new hp...

yes, that latest nokia 6110 Navigator that cost 650 plus..

no i didnt sell my n73 away.. i still have my n73...now i can keep changing hp..the camera damn good...

one thing, i dont really know how to use the gps...

this friday im gonna watch chuck n larry..

hahaha..can i have that guess bag??

A LONG POST!!!

read only if you think my life thrills you

I HATE EXAMS.

yesterday
before exams, i brokedown, coz i wish i cud leave everything and visit my nenek..

I HATE SEEING MY GRANDMA LYING ON THE BED N I CANT DO ANYTHING AT ALL 2 HELP HER!!

I HOPE SHE GET WELL SOON!!!

NENEK, HANIS SAYANG NENEK!!

I REALLY DO!!

CEPAT BAIK, BOLEH KITA TGK MANJA LARA SAMA SAMA..

ya Allah lindungi nenek aku, semoga operation itu berjalan dengan lancar, semoga nenek cepat sembuh, amin..

ps: the operation will be either on thursday or friday

i love saturdays..

BUT

3 times in a row my saturdays ruined by stupid things...

i woke up with a smile on my face..

i dreamt abt my freaking hot god brother which i truly miss..

a dream thats damn weird but..its ok...forget abt it..willl meet him this weekend..

i really hope so...wakakaka..

met my cousins and went to hospital together...

wen we reach there... felt like cousins gathering...

pics below...

i love them...
siblings...

reach home in time to watch formula one qualifying..
enjoying every mins till i got an unexpected msg from my fren..
but this time my fren became the middleman..
im really fucking mad..
i dont like to bring other ppl to be middleman..
i prefer to settle it on my own..
i gave a nice long sms..
first msg at the wrong time..
and

PLS take note, if wanna pick up a fight with me
check espn or starsport time listing when's f1 n the time..
dun msg or call during formula one qualifying or race!!
coz it will make me really bad tempered..

he got fed up, he called me..
we talked close to 3 hours
well he promise he wont dissed me or anything.. n we are even..
nothing more..
im allowed to blog abt this i guess.. but he cant..
coz i dun dissed him on my blog..
he even admit he was the one to be blame for everything..
he did asked me to record, but i didnt..

he talk to me nicely.. but i was already pissed off..

i shouted like nobody business..

my entire family heard me shouting and scolding him using all the vulgarities i know..

ya he lied to me, he told me his frens complain to him im irritating and all..

i mass send msges to his frens which i keep in contact..

wen he know i send his frens the msges... he replied this, 'i juz bluff u la'...

u r so unpredictable..

yes i am, i juz wan real facts!!

omg... but now, everything is settled..

hope we lead our own life peacefully..

juz treasure the memories and enjoy our new life...

take care...

WHAT I NEED NOW...

check it out below...

i need this...but Dad bought it for his fren..

below is just what i wud like to share with u guys out there..
i hope after this life would be better than ever..
i juz wanna let out everything..

it's been awhile since it's over between me and him..

even tho it's over between us, there are things going on..he and me decided to let it be a secret...

yes we went out together when we got time, just to spend time together..we went swimming, catch a movie,see fireworks and all..

ok thats all...

but now

not a surprise to some who have been speculating this and that, by what's displayed. (the recent fight)

and...
all the while i havent been speaking about it cos some just cant understand and dont know the real deal, and have been thinking i'm the villain here who making things worst. and i just swallow that up, along with those tears and pain he caused. yes he's such an angel, to some..

but no one would believe i have drained myself out trying so hard to clear the misunderstanding and everything thats going on. no one would understand my position. everyone else would rather understand his position rather than mine, cos none of you have ever been in my position dealing the relationship with him..

everyone else has gone thru times and alot of things with him and all, so it's easier to relate to him than me. so let me be the villain, and i dont see a point talking about it anymore. and i realise i cant relate to him. its damn hard. recently he bluff me, till i have to mass send msges to friends to find out the truth. and im going to blame him for the fight occur between my lovergirl n her bf.

he has been an angel yes. let's all just stop at that. but no one will ever know why i have cried some nights in frustration. and i wouldnt even say it.

i have always, tried to keep up a positive attitude about him, and tried very hard to not let anyone know how sad i was, how frustrated i was, how angry and heart broken i was. so no one knew.
to the point i felt that someone just had to assume things. and that i'm the villain. and to top it up, how he would sound like a sweet loving innocent puppy on his blog, just makes me look even more like the villain in this.
and till he dissed me in his blog, plus with the sms that he sent really hurt me. and he called it, his attitude that im experiencing is just the tip of the iceberg. and some still assume things. treating me worst than a criminal.

my heart, broken. and i'm taking every minute i have to fix it.

my faith in LOVE, gone.

no mood to blog abt wats goin on in life

coz

im very tired..
enjoy the pics me in hospital...

they are the ones that make me smile...

i spend more time there than home or other places!!

i love him so much...
he's trying to grab the hp
my cousins, now they are getting bigger..(in size)

some are heavier, taller than me...
the spoilt brat..

i swear its damn painful...

my cousins

my sis n her husband n my cousin..

i juz lost my uncle on saturday night..

Al - Fatihah

dad receive the called abt midnite aft the engagement party.. i was damn shock..

on friday wen they visit him in icu, he was alrite..

life juz so unpredictable...

juz now early morning, my grandma fell down while buying breakfast..

god.. i wish i cud juz take the pain away frm her..

i cant bare 2 see her juz lying on the bed, i never see her in so much pain before..

full moon kinda busy now..

n at the same time, my life is really messed up...

time u cud really see me laugh or smile is wen im wif my cousins,

they really make me forget abt wats goin on in my life..

make me forget abt the

ppl that make use of me...

ppl that juz wanna hurt me...

only my family n full moon that really know me well..

not forgetting few frens out there...

full moon, wen we can meet again?? imy..

thanks for that lovely msg..
told you, i'll be here forever...

it juz make my day..evn tho im really down, wif the things going on in my life..

ps: make sure u, use that pic as ur wallpaper..so every min u remember me!!