i miss...
hafiz
full moon
mikhail
my cousins
my granny and atuk
mizan
wawa
amelia shahana
farrah
eqa
nini
adk
adk suraya
aidy
azreen
shazzy look alike - ite simei
dome look alike - ite simei...name mickey
SCHOOL!!

too emo...

JUZ WANNA MEET HIM......HAFIZ N FULL MOON

im having fever. again.. seriously i had hell of fun last nite...soccer... yes... spore vs msia... crazy rite... my date wif mizan went welll last min plan....friday nite...late nite...
he so worried abt me coz u can see how pale my face is...
i dunno but we did plan to go out mayb in 2 weeks time....i dunno..see first...

eqa bro, johan, enjoy giler...he so funny and i can say very naughty...but ya i enjoy seating wif him....

i saw alot of cute guys...me and eqa, if can juz wanna ask no but...we juz to shy, n i dun hav the mood coz im still having fever....but not gonna miss the finals!!!

well i have mixed feelings now...

i miss some1 badly... n all i could say... he really the guy i love...but closed chapter...let time decide....

mizan is a super hot stuff!!!!

sorry for not updating my blog for so long...
life...hmmm enjoy to the fullest but at the same time busy wif family...

last sunday i watch re perform...gosh!!! amer so hot n tembam!! my madu fault!! hahaha

been spending time wif nini and fadzil....best..

finally i get to carry baby amelia shahana..<--my god daughter...

cute giler!!!

yesterday for the first time me and mikhail didnt even talk and play together...coz we both down wif fever...

today i didnt go sch... and.... i got mc.... there this guy isa fren name fardil...a nurse...wanna my no...and now he become my personal nurse... if isa....hahahaha eqa gonna kill me!! hahahaha

adik is like over joy!! coz she got 3 guys no....yes 1 look like sein!!! 2 of them i asked the no...

hahahaha.... i found amer, eqa found zain n adik sein.... we still searching for azan!!! hahahaha

im nuts... in the middle of the nite, i acted as ruffedge in tipah tertipu, darth vader.... gilers!!!

mizan, he so cute!!!! dush....

im having fever!!!!

i feel so sad...coz i msg souher, i guess she need some1... but ya..i msg her im so sorry i cant be there wif her... and she thinks im making it a big deal... i dunno...watever is...girl no matter how busy i am, i still think abt u....and juz so sorry for everything...

i had alot of fun...hell of fun..seriously, walk in the middle of the nite aft movie and last train and all...its like hmmmm things i never did before...i wanna update pics but, i didnt have my cable wif me...

hmmmm friday i went to nini hse to chill wif..laypark giler....hahahaha...

i found a lot unsolve mystery and truth...hahaha...but all that are so personal!!!

sometimes rite wen we close or so close to some1, actually we dun really know if the person like us or not...serious!!! last friday i learn abt some stuff which shock me!!!!

well shall not talk abt it anymore....to those ppl who pretend espcially to a few guys i know...u shud juz tell the girl u hate her, dun juz layan her...coz if she knows u hate her, she will cry!!!

back to nini hse, aft adk n farrah left, eqa left...then this hot guy came!! real hot...argh i felt like a lamp post!! i love disturbing him, he so shy...cute giler!!! lepak serious!!! i need to pretend cover my face wif pillow so i dun see the romantic scene goin on!!! sorry nini!! hahaha

then the best thing is, i juz so in love wif mizan...hmmm love disturbing him actually...hahahaha...
aft nini hse, i went home..get ready to meet farrah but cancel coz i go out wif my cousin...

hmmmmmm saturday, hmmm normal family first...then my fren call me offer watch cicakman!! hehehe watelse i say yes!!!!
had fun, meet them all the bridge leader at far east, saw alot of hot boys!!! damn hot...then i saw aiz.... i ask him for cigarette...he gave....hahaha aft 3 days i didnt smoke, i smoke again...haiz...
then his fren complain, oh kwn kau tk kasi, pompuan kau kasi...hahahaha...i laugh...i had fun wif everybody...we took taxi to woodlands, and farrah called me saying she saw aidy, hahaha...i saw aidy's girl before...so ya....no prob to tat...
everybody complain they feel so cold in the cinema....i didnt...nampak sah...hahaha..i juz use my topshop tank top....hmmmm...i felt giddy coz i didnt eat the whole day...

hmmmm reach home close to 1230 midnite...and eat...wash my face, my fren called me, and i went online to chat...then my fren called me again and sleep close to 4 am...hmmmmm...sleepy!!!

i miss my full moon...been busy lately!!!!!

i miss my nephew 2...haiz juz 2 days didnt meet ....n im missing him so badly...i called him...he will ask me....kak hanis at home?? meet mikhail?? i say no and he willl shout out loud and hang up....hahahaha...cute rite...

love u all!!! muackz!!!

hmmmm juz online....
i got bad news for myself abt my nurse guy...he hates girl tat smoke!! i shouted at my fren...so loud...but he knows i was joking...hahaha

life? cool...love sch...hot guys especially azreen aidy and all...haiz...i got aidy's pics...but he dun let me post it at my blog...hahahaha...

i mean ya..its cool but claz and homeworks been overloading, i stayed at sch juz to clear my mind and do my homeworks...

im so sick...ppl think i look funny wif short hair..some think cute..

btw juz now i went to nini hse....her hse so damn nice!! i really enjoy spending my break at her hse...our remedial claz start at 2 so at 1pm we went back to her hse..fun girl to hang out wif espcially wif ezan ard!! lepak giler!!!

here are the pics me and all my frens!!!

well lately i dun hav time for even my family, n for frens,seriously... i cant even spend time...so enjoy the pcs peeps!!

i hate my hair tats it!!!

I FUCKING NO MOOD!!! DAMN!!!

spending my time wif family its like....I REALLY FELT SO HAPPY...
i miss my nephew..promise on tuesday i will meet him,

on friday i spend my time wif him...see wat we did...hmmmm we went upstairs and clean...hahaha..see how he clean the room..

he trip and fall

trying hard to hit me wif that

a pose...

good boy...cleaning the room

now im not feeling well....sore throat...coz of smoking...n hmmm i walk in the rain...aft sch wen wanna go back home from eunos mrt...argh...

tmr sch...dunno wat gonna happen...love ya..muackz...

today, a few of my frens cried...well wen i otw to sch, well at bus stop, i met aiz...hmmm this guy...i know him wen i went to abg mojo open hse...hmmmm ok we chill n smoke...hmmm i take from him..hahaha...then we talk n its at 10 he say he wanna go home n slp....alrite...meet farrah n eqa at cafe 1...class at 12...n we already in sch by 1030...crazy..alif was there...i juz wanna a break, as him, i dun wanna to talk or hav anything wif him, damn wif the mess going on non stop...
wen claz start, i mean accounting claz...shereen me eqa n farrah went to toilet n shereen gave us a long lecture...and she hate alif....so ya...we start 0-0...me n farrah hav nothing against each other...
i delete ismail alif no from my hp...seriously...im tired of him...LEMAS!!!!! PLS PACK YOUR STUFF N GO LA!!!!

n 2 eqa...hmmm tat afin, or watever his name, hmmmm he not worth ur time girl..he a liar...penipu...

now enjoying singleville life...or singlehood...hmmm...and not only tat i been spending quality time wif my beloved nephew...mikhail...its like, oh my god...at first he call me aunty...then kakak...wen his mum called me hanis, he call me hanis...can u juz imagine...n wen he play wif my sch bag...as in like a teacher doin spot check n wen i say no, he shouted out loud at me n slap me...hahaha then his mum will slap him, seriously...n he love calling ppl, he can juz answer ur phone n talk to the person till tat person get fed up n hang up on him....his voice juz so cute....but he very mischievous n at times irritating(his mum said so), hahaha...
he have his mood....wen he wanna be alone, he will do everything alone, but wen he bored then he find for me...he likes to help...example my nenek wanna go toilet...he will say, mikhail help mikhail help, then he push my nenek...hahaha...

me n mikhail at the porch chilling beside the car mikhail aft pom2 he play wif powder

he has this anklet wif bells...so we know where he goes n all...n wen he came near me, i know he will shout at me and run back to his dada (daddy) hahaha...n he will complain to his dada kakak hanis angry... it means kakak hanis scold him...its always like tat...

he even steal my hp and gave his dada....serious...n the worst part, wen he start goin up...i mean my granny hse banglow 3 storey...so he will climb up the stairs...then he go down, then he go up...n i have to follow...coz he will do all sort of things, example, sweeping the floor...clean the windows...hmmm a good husband...hahahaha...

n i know he have good taste...hmmm wen we watch tv, he will show me all the sexy girls...like mtv video clips, he love beyonce, fergie...n many more...haiz, playboy nephew aku...
n he love the song my hump n i wanna fuck u...coz he dance to the music wen we listen to those songs...not only that reggaeton music...daddy yankee...ya he cant stop dancing...n tat was yesterday wen we went out to parkway...he stop and dance wen we were shopping...

n he love to bully his maid...well ya, he will shout for his maid..juz look at the pic how hard to dress him up, he played wif the powder n put at his maid face...n juz look at his face...

and now im finding for a shampoo tat i use at my granny hse...its so...i dunno wat to say but....its nice and make my hair really smooth n silky... here the pics of the shampoo n treatment wax...

idk wat next...full moon juz advice me 1 thing....juz accept the blame evn u have no intention of selling it...and maybe its an idea but u know the truth....dun need to worry alot...i know u are badly hurt...but this time round, juz ignore...u wanna cry go ahead...sometimes ppl dun really see or wanna see wat u did...once u said something evn tho its a joke, they will think the negative way...if wanna still wif ur frens, i dont mind... but remember, pls be selfish...dont care and think abt their feelings.
i hate to hurt ppl....i really so tired...i dun wanna hurt myself or anything...not even my frens...i hate all this drama tat been happening ard...now my frens think im hurting them 2...lying and all...damn shit la...i really gave up...i guess i screw up everything from the very first day i know ismail alif...
full moon asked me 10 times, if i really wanna sell his ipod, i was like, u think i crazy...its ppl stuff...i always do things, i put myself in other ppl shoes also...so i dun wanna tat 2 happen...
and full moon was like, if u wan and ipod i can get for u...but i told him, i use his ipod coz i cant bring my hp time holiday...then he was like, hmmmm so wats the matter...
i juz need to pack my bag now coz i sleep at my nenek hse...jalan kechot...wif mikhail...

idk wat going happen next...i went to sch, as usual...chill wif adik, eqa n farrah...
they had to go coz they got bridge leader...
then nini came so we chill since claz at 12..
i meet alif 2 pass back his stuff..
welll....
he shouted at me and all...
damn...yesterday he called me sundal and alll
then today u shouted at me and his hand almost slap me....
why he do this to me?
wen i talk and ask properly
well he only know how to ask forgiveness from farrah..not me...
well i told him, i kinda wish i dont know him, so he never hurt me...
i think he juz use me....i guess...

i ask him, y call me sundal, he say he didnt call me...it did not refer to me..then who? farrah?

it juz hurt me...im really so tired wif everything...
i miss my days wif hafiz...he never hurt me...never...never shouted at me...
god..things change so fast...i juz need time for myself...

well i found out the guy i like from my sch, is fadily classmte n his name is aidy...
but to bad...he has a girl...oh...
then mizan juz so hot....i really like disturbing him...i think he more matured then some other guy i know....
n my nurse alif...i miss him..
i miss mizan 2...

well...im kinda alrite today..morning2 i asked a guy no for farrah..hahaha..we laugh alot..for aft so long...
i miss my alif nurse guy...aiyo..
then now i know my cafe 2 guy name, azreen...
i really feel happy...but at the same time sad...ya coz farrah make up her decision...well she felt so lemas wif alif...alif control her life...which he didnt do tat wen i was wif him...well we do need our own space...
i gave my advice as a best fren n throw away my past...
i dunno wat next, but now i guess our drama has ended...we are like singles... n since sch starts today....so peeps lets enjoy n go guy hunting...
haha..
now i kinda mad..yesterday a girl scold me pompuan sundal for juz a piece of advice...then juz now...haiz....i got it from sum1 tat i really love...confuse...
watever is...its over between me n him, he n my bestfren...like wat full moon say...yeah no more hindi movie going on....but it seems to be a gol n gincu drama series...teenage life...hahahaha
watever...cant wait for tmr guy hunting...

corinna is back
so is farrah...

bad start... but its a good start tis week...

im not happy tat my fren break up...
i feel sad...actually i cry...but now farrah n me have no hard feelings n all...we been best fren for 2 years... i mean this wednesday we 2 years...we really love each other...

im like online for hmmm fun...i guess...
then i browse ppl page n stuff...
try to help farrah but to a certain extend...
this is wat i told her...

i can help u but to a certain extent that i can but the personal things between u and him i just cant let myself know

i got to tell her n she understand...tmr sch start...damn...hahaha..i gave farrah zain pic...coz zain is using the top she fucking want so much...n its like...she go like...fucker...

hahaha

well some minahrep is kinda crazy....hahaha i juz said a few words she call me a pest...im like wat the fuck...its better i tell u the truth before i bitch ard abt u...mana satu dia nak...well i juz helping her...but its up to her...malas nk get involve wif a minahrep...wawa juz accept the fact tat she feel so insecure wif her surroundings tat she needs a tiam...or watever they call it...
n now she thinks she looks ugly wif it...
duit dia...kita juz give advice...

chow peeps...im like hoping to meet the guy i went out wif yesterday...he so fucking cute n hot....mummy can i hav him....hahaha mcm nk beli teddy bear...can somebody get me a new teddy bear....

begitu berat melangkah melihat kau bersama nya
adakah aku yang salah
atau hanya hela saja
ku masih mencintai diri kamu
biar kau jauh ku rindu

it hard to see u with her
am i wrong
or is this just a lie
i still love u
even tho u are far

to be continue....

my family knows i drink i smoke n all...
i make a promise no more drinking...smoking i try
i finish the final pack today...see how...
today i had fun....out wif this cute guy...but name alif...
i got 1 guy no....he looks like 18 19...but he will turn 17 tis year...im like wat!!
ok he so cute...
this is the real hanis aka corinna rite...
talk abt cute guys...
nothing change...still feeling down..but tats all...
i juz promise everybody no more drinking...
love u guys...
i still need time...

telling my feelings...ending up...i feel more pain...why...
its like farrah told him i feel hurt n all...
n he shouted at me...he said i dun wanna see farrah happy...if i dun wanna see farrah happy..tat nite itself i wont let her be wif u...
he want me to do something tat is impossible for me to do...
its like crazy...
he blame me...he shouted at me...
sometimes its easy to said then done...
to me yes i shud get over him, but it will take a very long...or maybe its impossible...

god...I FEEL LIKE DIGGING OUT THE FUCKING PAIN FROM MY BODY COZ IT HURT SO MUCH...

im sorry farrah if ur life is now in a mess becoz of me...

wat he say is almost 100% true..i shudnt tell anybody wat my feeling or said anything...i regret..

so aft this... im juz gonna keep quiet...n hopes this pain go away...hahaha..hope? i been praying and wishing...but the pain never go away...i been telling n making myself busy n stuff...but i cant let it out... i dunno...i been putting alot of effort to forget him, but it still there...
MY BIGGEST MISTAKE IS TO LOVE HIM.. N I REGRET...
NOW IF U ASK ME IF I STILL LOVE HIM...MY ANSWER IS... I REGRET...

seriously idk whats next...wawa thinks my life worst than a hindi movie...ya but the pain is worst...

farrah let me go for his sake...i mean...i dun wan all this thing to carry on...its hard for me to face the pain...many knows i cant make it...i wanna u both 2 be happy..

i need a break...god pls let me out from this mess....

my life is getting more and more personal...some juz dont understand my feelings...some do...i do this not coz i want u 2 pity me or scold me, example im the most stupid person on earth...
hey i care for my frens...i mean i sacrifies for her happiness...ya in this world at times u hav 2 be selfish...but ya... im not... i sacrifies and care for her...i hope she knows and realise it....which i think she does... so... i cant stop ppl from thinking and wondering..this is reality...things happen...n we have to face it...i know y ppl care so much abt this issue coz it happen once in a lifetime...so...it happen to me and ppl ard hav to learn from tis...not to take it like oh...if it happen again sure the girl or guy gonna sacrifies his or her love for frens n their love....not all...only a few...

im going thru hell lot of problems now....boi,frens,family,sch...how tough can i be to go thru all this shits...what more shits can i ask for...

yes thats y i say my life getting more personal to blog....im not scolding or mad or anything...im juz so fucking stress which is making me so tired...sleepless nites....

now wat im feeling and all...i really wan to keep it to myself...evn it hurt so badly....its like me cutting myself n see the blood oozes out..but i juz hav to keep it to myself...i dun wan ppl to point fingers who at fault...if u think im wrong or whoever wrong....pls keep it to urself...i really appreciate wat u guys think abt...i really do...i know u care abt me....
but i dun wanna hurt anybody..coz im already badly hurt...

but i already said earlier on...this is reality....which everynite im hoping n praying its a nitemare...but ya i have to face it and it really hurts....so guys think abt others to...dont be selfish...if at times u think wat u think is wrong....if u cant turn back the time, ask for forgiveness and really show u r sincere wif everyting...i am sincere wif wat i do...only time and place is not right...that why i still feel badly hurt...IDK if i can make it or not...its all left in his hand...

wat ever u guys help me i really appreciate it...if u got anything to say...pls mind the words...i dun wanna hurt anybody and MYSELF MORE!!! IM TIRED...

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

lyrics from song what goes around..u can find it at my ipod beside for the song...its from my hubby justin!!

btw...im still in the not so ok mood...but my cousins n family make my day so far...

here story for now...

im like having hangover..hahaha..but i got to wake up early....now at my granny hse, she like nagging at me to cut my hair...i mean hello, my hair is long...im like the only cucu beside iffa...have real long hair...ok

today ain first day at sch...im like so excited to know abt her first day..i ask my aunt guess wat..she vomitted at sch coz she nervous...i was, luckily u got 2 mum there...coz my 2 aunt teaching in the same sch...

wen my aunt said she vomit i was like, refresh memory.. erm a week ago wen we wanna go home from cameron she vomitted in the car n i was beside her...my uncle stop the car, i grab my things and run to another car...hahahaha..how mean i can be...

hahahaha...i cant stop laughin...she got 2 recess break...at 9 and 12...my aunt came back aft her recess, go pasar buy stuff then went home clean hse..i mean her husband vacumm she do sum cleaning up in the kitchen....then abt 11 they quickly go back to the sch to see how their precious lil girl doing...im like...let her be alone la..she got 3 cousins in the same sch...pri 6, 5 n 3 if not wrong...or mayb sec 1,pri 6 n 4....its a madrasah...

ok got to go...i got alot of things to do...hope god bless me...amin

i thought i told myself from time to time again all night long,
coz i've cried so much and i hate to be alone,
i guess i was wrong, now that you are gone with somebody new what was i to do..
i've got to be strong yet i cant be alone
i gave you my love i gave you my trust,
i just want you back and tell you how much.....
im missing you too much
im missing you crazy everyday
i just wanna feel your love again..
now hear me say...
" "< cant say it anymore...if u listen to the song dont go u will know....

rite now im abit senget... reading ve forum...and i come across this topic.... if your ex bf becomes your best fren's new boyfriend... http://ve-groove.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=1881 < can check it out...
im like reading every post abt the topic....what they wrote is nonsense...maybe coz they didnt go thru it....but im going thru it rite now....now i will advice ppl wat i go thru....if no....bettert not coz we may nt understand wat others feeling

first i met farrah aft going out alone...the plan was to talk abt me n her..only 3 of us include souher...ending its 7 of us....
me farrah freda (her sis) alif souher redza (souher bf) and afiq...
as normal chill and all...
today i try to face it. again..i dunno if im tat strong or not...i juz so confuse and in pain...n its killing me...
wen home nizar send me home....hmmm full moon kinda bad mood wif me...im sorry dear...i know another a few more days our 1st year anni as frens...and u got to deal wif me that now u completely dont know coz i change....
u hate to see me like this...idk wat to do...im juz so sorry if i hurt u..

and farrah called me...she told me farahizza blame her for everything...
i cried...coz idk who to be blame...i didnt blame her...
she ask me if i will be her best fren forever..i say yes...i will, promise...

before i left home i chat wif leeya...we really talk abt alot of stuff...
and to all out there...im sorry...but its almost impossible for me to be my old self back....
n im sorry if i hav dissapoint u guys wif wat craziness i did....

my life is getting too personal to blog....haiz...

i dunno...full moon ask me...where his baby go...i told him his baby changed and will not be the same...
he ask tis..
is something killing u?
i know the break up is normal...but is it becoz the guy u love is wif ur best fren...and it kills u till u act like a robot..no feelings for anything...
i didnt reply...but i guess u and him know the answer...
it kills me...now i juz love to keep it to myself...my feelings and everything...

to full moon n my frens...now u guys will have a diff hanis or corinna...

thanks for everything....leeya, wawa and all..u guys help me alot...

hey peeps happy new year..
happy birthday bone and mode if not wrong..ya 1st jan...may god bless u guys...

hmmm leaving 2006 which is full of sadness for hopefully a better 2007 ...

went out wif nizar...ya the hot guy that i told u...we are like childhood frens but today is the first time we meet aft so long...

went to town..then meet farrah n alif...we chill at coffee beans till souher come before we head to burger king for late dinner..me and nizar ate...but then got some misunderstanding tat i dun really know...before that farrah ask if im alrite... im alrite i guess...she said from my eyes she cud tell that i look jealous wen she and alif u know hugging and all...but wat can i do...i juz see only...nothing more...my feelings..im like hmmm a robot...

i dunno...im juz confuse..hope my nenek is alrite...hmmm...its 2007...